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I'm such a mess (16)


1 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-18 22:30 ID:7hE2kAp+

I'm a fucking mess.

On the outside, I'm the happiest guy you've ever seen. I'm funny, I can communicate with people great, I've got no problems of getting along with people, people like me because I'm oh so unpredictable and interesting. You'll never see me with a sad face because I'm the optimistic kind of guy, "never gonna bring me down!" and all that stuff.

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2 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 01:14 ID:ogieXNBy

Drink a little (a lot) of wine with friends and let it all out. Have a cry or two. Look foolish for a change. It'll be fine lad, just fine. You're completely normal and healthy. Besides, anyone can describe the texture of a kitchen knife with ease and nobody assumes a happy face in public implies a happy life.
I NEED AFFECTION OH SO DESPERATELY. Doesn't everybody?

3 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 02:18 ID:Heaven

wine? beer son, drink beer and then some. get piss drunk and numb

4 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 02:49 ID:7hE2kAp+

>>3
Beer? More like Vodka!

5 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 04:13 ID:Heaven

I don't know since when I changed to such a cold-hearted guy.
I have to warm this frozen icy lonely heart to thaw.
I like being wrapped with warmness more than anything else for sure.
I'm gonna make my coming days to be filled with laughter and joy.

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6 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 04:21 ID:B/6x34jk

That said, I know exactly how you feel. You're like the goddamn mirror image of me, other than the knife part.

I've considered getting drunk with people, like >>2-4 suggested, but I was raised in a family where drinking alcohol was against our religion (Islam).

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7 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 06:52 ID:Heaven

>>1 Never EVER drink booze alone. Don't get together with people as an excuse to drink.

Mmm, alcoholism. I have a friend who's similar to >>1. He started to drink as a way of numbing pain, and within a year had turned into an alcoholic. So do make sure to never drink for the sake of using it as some sort of emotional remedy.

8 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 08:19 ID:QXW+hb6i

>>1
I want to hug you so bad.

I can sort of relate to you, but not to that extremity. I know what it feels like to have expectations build up around you and pretending everything is dandy. I'm a perfectionist, but at the same time I'm heaps lazy. If someone tries to convince me about something, I'll go with the total opposite. I'll avoid problems by ignoring them and even though people comment on how emotionally strong I am, I actually get cut really easily. I've spent countless hours trying to work myself out to no real avail. I think that if I ever got the chance to meet myself, I would scream at me in frustration. I always come across as nice and welcoming, but I'm actually quite distant and terrified of someone getting close to me. That is why at 18, I've never had a relationship despite being asked out three times before. I actually think I'm doing them a service because I'm not the cute and bubbly girl that they're usually accustomed to. It feels lonely sometimes, but my petty problems are usually brought into perspective as I remember how selfish I am being.

9 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 09:07 ID:Heaven

>>1

>I need affection oh so desperately.
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10 Name: Gin : 2007-02-19 09:54 ID:dtdY75vo

>>1

I can relate.. On the outside, I too am happy-go-lucky, social, all-around fun guy. But, deep inside, i'm bitter with hate, anger, and sadness.

11 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 10:18 ID:Heaven

>>1 Never EVER take paracetamol alone. Don't get together with people as an excuse to take paracetamol.

Mmm, pain killer addictions. I have a friend who's similar to >>1. He started to take paracetamol as a way of numbing pain, and within a year had turned into an addict. So do make sure to never take paracetamol for the sake of using it as some sort of headache remedy.

12 Name: Kira : 2007-02-19 11:30 ID:FbFcE8J3

Well I am abit like that too... But I think... Who cares if I am virgin or not... Everyone talks about those things... But it doesn't mean anything... It doesn't matter if you become a virgin till... let's say 25... Because it's a person's opinion... the real things that matter should be... Having a good relationship and marriage without divorce or break ups and such. Of course I am talking for example...

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13 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 11:32 ID:Heaven

>>11
Woo! I got copy-pasta'd! And no, I disagree. Booze is not the medicine for your problems in life. That's a lot of bullshit, sprouted by the ones that refuse to realize that getting shitfaced won't solve any problems, but will only make them worse.
I've got nothing against drinking alcohol, I have a lot against people trying to do something as foolish as using alcohol as emotion-medicine.

14 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-19 12:59 ID:glkG1U1H

>>1 get over yourself

15 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-20 11:08 ID:Heaven

>>13
Oh I totally agree that alcohol isn't a solution for problems (although it'll dissolve plenty of other things, woo chemistry). But that doesn't preclude drinking alone, merely drinking to solve problems.

16 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-20 18:47 ID:Heaven

I really don't see him as having severe problems, such that alcohol would definitely be ill advised. I see him more as being unable to take that first step of becoming really intimate with friends. Once he gets over sharing his feelings, he'll realize that his situation is a common one and easy to work through.