i am a tarp; a very eccentric tarp, but intelligent, decently attractive (easily passable, at least), and, i think, a nice, considerate and substantial person. i certainly think there's someone out there for me, buuuut... Every time i'm attracted to someone, they turn out to be out of reach. i kid you not.
what is tarp? trap?
tarp as in tarpoline.
Yes, tarp as in trap, as in male-to-female transsexual. :D
how can you be tarp and in high school at the same time?
i was going to a state-funded alternative high school - also, i only started transitioning midway through my senior year.
> i'm a weird, gothy trap. i'm into strange music
It sounds like I would hate you if I ever met you. I'd probably slap sense into you. But I have advice anyway. I'm a really quirky person too. When you have this sort of bizarre, difficult-to-understand personality, you won't make many friends. There are only two things you can do:
>>11 But if i wear more "normal" clothes, i feel uncomfortable and out of my element. i mean, i don't always dress up a whole lot - sometimes i just go with black pants, a band shirt, my combat boots and black lipstick. But if i were to go out and buy a bunch of stuff from the Gap or something, i don't think i would end up wearing it. It just doesn't feel right.
black lipstick is bad enough. it makes you intimidating to people who might be your friend.
If they're a real, reasonably broad-minded person, can't they look past the lipstick and take a decent whack at finding out who i am as a person? And if they can't, why do i want them as a friend?
Because you want to mix in a tad more? And maybe they'll be not as far as friends, but acquaintances is enough?
>>16 i want to mix in? Er... no.
YOU want me to mix in, because you're uncomfortable with me and people like me, and YOU don't want to have to deal with people like me walking down the street.
I admire your resilience. It's fucking awesome. Just hang in there I'm pretty sure you'll find someone.
One of the problems is that you're surrounding yourself with people who are pretty narrow minded. My advice is to seek out a place where there would be more accepting people. It doesn't have to mean that you need to go find a bunch of goths to hang out with either.
>>19 Why thank you! :) i kind of wish i could move to the city (i'm near San Francisco), but that doesn't seem very doable at the moment. At least then i would have a better stock of people to choose from...
>>21 Why thank you! :) i kind of shit i could move to the (i'm near San Francisco), but that doesn't seem very doable at the moment. At least then i would have a better stock of people to choose from...
"Seek not the favor of the multitude; it is seldom got by honest and lawful means. But seek the testimony of a few and number not the voices, but weigh them."
Well, fine, but realise you're choosing to "stand out a lot" and that it has ramifications - however unfair they may seem. To most people, you probably look like too much of a hassle to get to know when there's plenty of "normal" people they can talk to. If you don't like the crowd you attract, understand why at least.