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help... relationship didn't get off the ground (22)


3 Name: OP : 2007-05-23 01:24 ID:pw0G7Mr3

Oh, almost forgot...

Got her a little gift, a figurine to put in her car, and she never really looked twice at it... I've sent her a book in the past as a gift, (a book she'd lost years ago), and she'd seemed to like that back then...

I hate to even say it, but at her house, her mother showed more interest in me while I was standing there than she did... All night it felt like I was traveling around with an apathetic robot...

Anyway... She hasn't called or txted since that night... I... hate to be this way, but frankly I rather was hoping for an apology for not being herself... Relationship aside, that was just plain pretty dissapointing...

Finally, I got talking with one of her friends online, and heard that after they talked with her, she said that she "wasn't ready for a relationship, because she wants to travel & not be trapped..." "that stability, to me, is living one place, while she wants to travel the world somehow", and that "relationships scare her for that reason"...

Apparently from what she told her friend, she really didn't want to promise anything, but really liked me a lot, but has big issues right now... (issues she won't apparently even tell her friends) From what I was told, she didn't know how to tell me without me freaking out & blaming myself (which I am, frankly), and she "wants her freedom awhile longer, and hasn't gotten the chance to age yet"... (I am slightly older than she is, which is why I'm working here, and she's still in college there)

I'm not sure where to go on this one... Not even sure what I'd say if she does call me...

Certainly not even wanting to think about inevitably going to that anime convention... (We'd had plans to dress as a couple from a particular anime... That idea hurts too much to think about now...)