My names is Christy and as much as I try to deny it, I'm still just a silly teenage girl. Please keep that in mind as you read.
I'm post numbah 224 from the Virginity thread and I believe I have a problem that in the long run, is likely insignificant but as of now...It's sort of a pain.
So, I'm not too sure how I feel about the sex thing. I mean yeah, I really enjoyed it, but at the same time, it's made things so much more complicated.
I think what has me messed up is the fact that my first "carnal relation" was just a fuckbuddy thing. We were like rabbits but we never talked about it. I would completely shutdown if he tried to say something about it or if I thought to say anything to him. Not that he tried. I never told him I was a virgin, I don't think I'll ever tell him. Now when we see each other at parties, he mostly ignores me. He'll say hello, be polite, but it's like nothing happened.
Is this just a hard lesson to learn for me?
Was losing my virginity really not that big of a deal?
Am I making a fuss over nothing?
What does sex even mean?