My names is Christy and as much as I try to deny it, I'm still just a silly teenage girl. Please keep that in mind as you read.
I'm post numbah 224 from the Virginity thread and I believe I have a problem that in the long run, is likely insignificant but as of now...It's sort of a pain.
Seconded. I lost my virginity in a similar fuck-buddy situation and, although we consistently hung out (read: watched a movie, got some dinner, talked, and then fucked), he never would talk about it with me, easily got frustrated by my relative inexperience, and was, overall, a pretty borderline guy; funny to have at parties, interesting to talk to on an individual basis, but hard to foresee being long-term involved with, well, anyone.
Yeah, you just wasted it.
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Sadly, I'm with Secret Admirer on this one. I'm over 20 now, but I'm still a virgin. I've had a lot of chances of losing it, but all of them would have been the same way.
All I can say is, try to make it up to yourself... talk to him, even if he already knew you were a virgin. Talking can make the pain a little lighter... maybe it won't make it go away, but it'll make you have a clearer view of what he is like in reality and how you can avoid situations involving privacy and selfesteem in the future.
Don't feel bad, I lost mine to my very first boyfriend ever, and it hurt like a bitch, and the guy didn't give a flying fuck about me or my feelings.
And you know what? I was sad at first, but after that all I could think was, "Well, at least I got the first few painful times over with with someone I don't really care about. Now when it comes time to do it with someone worthwhile we can get right down to the fun part!" Haha.
Virginity is more of a sentilmental(sp?) thing anyway, like how girls like to dream that their first kiss is soft as marshmellow and taste like lemon crap.
if you dont value it personally then its no biggie, just wait until you do find the right person to enjoy it with.