I don't know if I want to break up with my boyfriend but I'm really fed up with him. I only want to stay because without him I'd be lonely. I like his friends, and I'm insecure so I don't think I'll find anybody else.
Troll somewhere else. This board needs less trolls.
As someone who said "I love you" on the phone, and realized when it became monotonous, I don't think this is a trolling post...
On the other hand, you leave many things unexplained in your post... Why are you "really fed up with him"? Why is it monotonous now...
Not a troll. He's a huge asshole to everybody I know except me and last night when he got depressed he lashed out at me, too. I just don't want to put up with any of his garbage anymore. He says stuff like "I'll change if you want" but it would make me happier if he saw on his own that being a jerkoff to people isn't a cool thing to do.
Nah, you shouldn't have to put up with someone insulting you. You don't have to take it especially if he acts like he doesn't care (and obviously you might feel the same).
OP, it sounds like you already justified it yourself... You're obviously better than that!
And as far as how to break up, I think your quotes about how he insults you, you're not his psychiatrist, and can't be, and how while you had fun, you don't see a future with him as he drags you down all the time says it all...
He sounds deeply unhappy, which is unfortunate, but that's no excuse for being cruel, and not a good reason for you to feel obligated to stay. Guilt is a terrible substitute for love, and will make you both unhappier in the end.
i can't believe you've even tolerated this for as long as you have. get rid of this asshole, you deserve a hell of a lot better. you will do better in the future.