Probably true... The problem is that I find myself incapable of giving up. Maybe I just keep lying to myself, but there is no way I could be 100% sure she will reject me, unless I actually ask her out.
So because I still have tiny bit of hope, I feel I have to take the risk. Also, otherwise it'll never end.
Another thing is that I'm not good at interpreting things, and my view of the situation not only isn't objective, but also sometimes changes rapidly depending on my mood...so I don't trust myself, I don't feel like my conclusions are any good.
(Not really asking for advice here, just presenting my view and asking if anyone has been in similar position.)