I've known this girl for about a year now, she lives pretty far away, about a 6 hour train ride or something which isn't that bad really - before I met her we got close as two people can on the internet, it was a bit ropey at times and I think she was as much hesitant as much she was willing for us to get together which is bound to cause problems, I myself was totally fine having been in a long distance relationship before without too much trouble, she had been in one also, but it turned out the worst way a long distance relationship could (cheating etc).
Honestly, I'm not sure what I can really help you with But there is one piece of advice.
Often times, from what I've seen and heard, you will have you put your friendship on the line to get something more.
>"infact telling me how awkward it was, in a really negative way"
Uh this is pretty straightforward on what this girl thinks of you. Why was it awkward?
She came out with all this bullshit about how I kept staying behind her when pretty much all the time I was trying to talk and keep at her side,aswell as some other shit, when I asked her why it was awkward.