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10 Name: >>1 : 2007-08-03 18:56 ID:lJrQj0s3

>>8 I've been hearing that more & more often.. I suppose it's ok to be a bit aggressive, and more take-charge... I'm going to try to let that dark aggressive part of me out, but try to keep it in check... It really is harder & harder lately not to give in to that self-destructive womanizer urge after experiencing so much disappointment and being so angry and disgusted over it...

I saw today an example of someone that really disgusted me, and it made me think about what that darker side of me would be like if I just let it be me... I saw an e-mail from my co-worker's son, replying to asking him about a girl he'd been seeing, and it really made me even more scared of letting that part of me out, for fear I'd be like this...

It read "Good part is I can be choosy, what are they going to do, break up with me. Boo Hoo, big deal, I got 'em waiting in the wings. Till I run out of girls in this town to date, I'll just keep kicking them to the curb 'till I find the one that totally fits what I'm looking for, Just don't really know what that is"

That really disgusted me... But I suppose that guy's out there enjoying having fun, getting laid, all the "good stuff" a jerk like that apparently gets... As he put it, they're "waiting in the wings"... While I can't get anyone to notice me...

Seeing something like that, it's really hard to keep that self-destructive sick side in check...

It's only the thought that I'd be like that that keeps it in check... A womanizer like that who jumps from woman to woman like tossing aside unwanted things makes me sick inside...

Thanks for the advice given thus far, guys & girls... It's really hard to contain the part of me that just wants to womanize & get laid, and at the same time, be a bit aggressive & self-confident while being a 'nice guy'...