Is a pussy full of psycho babble femtard talk. You're not being raped, you're just being stupid. You enjoy the sexual tension created by these "halfway there" encounters, and you know it. It's like getting the intimacy you want without the commitments you're afraid of. You're a bad girlfriend, and your boyfriend is probably getting head from some other chick because of it. If he's not already, he soon will be.
Put out or break up with him, drop the "pity poor me" cock tease routine and grow the fuck up.