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1 Name: Secret Admirer : 2008-04-11 03:37 ID:rXxk3QyT

Things got a little rough with my boyfriend yesterday and today. And the more I think about it, the more I worry.
When I'm with him I'm so happy, but then there are some things he does that just make me really upset. Maybe I am asking for too much. Whenever we argue, he doesn't understand why I'm upset and always wants me to tell him. But I want him to be able to figure out on his own sometimes. A relationship doesn't have to be all verbal, right? He should be able to tell what's wrong sometimes.
The truth is, I don't remember anything about what I used to be like before we were dating. But since my relationship with him started I've been really happy, and I remember everything I've ever done with him. But ever since we started going out, I've actually been crying a lot more than I used to. I cry every time we argue or disagree. I don't want to break up with him because [and this is so corny] I really love him a lot. But if it's so hard for him to just figure out why I'm upset and if he makes me upset so often, is it really worth it?
We have a weird relationship. He's a freshman in college and I'm a sophomore in high school now. We met last year in March and started going out in April of last year, which means it's going to be our one year anniversary soon. We barely even see each other in person anymore.
When we started going out I lied to my parents a lot in order to be with him, even if it was just an hour or two. My parents are typical extremely strict Asians. They found out about the lies and don't approve of our relationship anymore; they think we're just friends now. Obviously we're still together. I almost got into deep shit this year because I skipped a few days of school to be with him and my counselor found out. I never used to be like this, as much as I can remember. I mean, sure I had fights with my parents, but I never disobeyed them like this before. I even sneak out at night until like 5 the next morning to be with him, even on school days.
Bottom line is: I've gotten into so much trouble for/from him. We have wonderful times together and I love him very much. But truthfully, I think many aspects of my life were better before we started going out. I used to have [some] freedom and I seriously never used to cry so much.

This isn't a "should I break up with him" question. I just wanted to get some opinions... please no bashing = =...