Now that I've read through the first paragraph again I feel the same way and I'm sorry about that.
I do think I'm deceptive to a certain degree. There a lot of things I don't like about myself but I make an effort to conceal those things and I think I'm quite good at it too.
>"he scares me coz makes me feel dumb"
That was a direct copy and paste from that girl. Her friend passed it on to me.
And I don't like her just because I've known her since Primary school. I have a crush/like her but I'd also like to get to know her but I've never been given that chance.