I have to write this down. I am 19 years old (m), and I feel I may be in love with my best friend (same age, same uni, female), but I don't really want to be in such a state. She already has a boyfriend, plus she's the only real best friend that has been my friend unconditionally since high school. I'm not sure if I'm just experiencing strong platonic love or something, but it's really annoying, as is the fact that I have absolutely no-one to confide in. No-one at all. Quite frankly, I just want to move away from everyone I know after college, preferably to a large city like Berlin or Vienna, and become another anonymous face in a big city.
Moving sounds like a good idea. Sorry man, but friends can never become lovers. I mean, okay, it can happen, it's happened to me twice, but trust me, it always ends badly.
Actually, I was in this exact same situation for almost 2 and a half years. It's really difficult and extremely painful.
I got over him by chance, to be honest. We spent three weeks together on a trip with some other friends, and by the time it was over I was so ready to get away from him it was almost unbearable.