i just need to vent.
its been 3 months since i broke up with my first gf. i really thought she was the one. i became a wuss in the relationship and as we all know that kills every bit of chemistry. i was also a selfish bastard. and a pushy one.
I don't know why I'm giving advice to an emo because you won't understand it until you are not in the circular mindset of emo, but here I go anyway.
First girlfriend - never really works. hate to say it, but you really need to have a handful of them before you get it right. As you say, you were whiny, pushy, stubborn, and selfish, which is natural because it takes some time to get used to thinking about someone else over yourself.