About two years ago I had the love of my life. After a whole life of abusive relationships I met the one girl who cared for me properly and didn't yell at me or abuse me.
I was happy, and I mean really happy all the time. I'd go to her house all the time and watch anime with her and cuddle with her and we would kiss and everything was right in the world. We never had full on sex because we wanted to wait, but even when we just fooled around I felt more passion with her than I have ever felt in my entire life.
You should never put yourself in a position where you find yourself dependant on somebody like this. She has a right to love or fool around with anybody just as much as you do. You let yourself be used when you let her start fooling around with you when you knew you'd break up.
If you are a woman (lesbian) you have my sympathy, if you are a man you have my rage and disgust.
>>1 I don't have any sympathy for someone who holds irrational grudges.
The answer to your problems is to stop acting like some kind of victim and learn some self-respect. Unfortunate shit happens to everyone, the only difference between you and everyone else is you perpetuate it with your pathetic attitude and behaviour.
I'm fairly young, I just turned 20 a week ago. I know I have most of my life ahead of me to find someone new. I know that right now my mind should be on other things but I just cannot escape from my loneliness. I see couples together looking happy and I just want to die.
Mostly people would say 'go to some psychiatrist' which is actually the way to go. But some people need more than just a psychiatrist. They need real friends, and by the sounds of your so-called friends, they are all asswipes who needs to be burned.
Find someone new, but I hope you're not using a relationship as a substitute for self-respect. A mistake people often do is use relationships to make up for deficiencies in themselves. Actually, one should love oneself first before loving others. That way, you don't become so dependant and so hurt by what others do. Otherwise, using others to make up for personal sadness will never work. You said you had self-hatred. I would focus on that.
>Why would that make a difference?
Women can do what they want, but a man should be fierce, strong and self-sufficient - be a real man! The tone and content of your posts annoy me, and indicate that you are weak, foolish and a bad person.
OP, you are such a textbook example of a wussy, needy guy, that it downright sickens me.
Do you know why that girl broke up with you? Because you acted like a needy little boy. How often did you kiss up and say "yes" to her? How long did you spend on the phone with her? How many wasted hours did you spend just watching anime with her? Too many. And when she showed the first sign of pulling back, you went nuts and tried to hold her tighter. Girls HATE that. They HATE needy, wussy little boys.
So, it would be easier to be a woman.
>So, it would be easier to be a woman.
Ya but women have to bleed out of their gonads for a week every month
it's time to come to terms with your homosexuality, OP
>>13 When I start to consider how much more sex I'd be getting, bleeding even the whole month doesn't feel so bad.