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1 Name: Subject No. 0 : 2009-07-28 22:18 ID:wC65Bq4Q

On this board there are many threads where posters give advice and encouragement on varying aspects of the other posters romantic lives. This advice and encouragement deals with a wide range of subjects and situations. While there are some success stories that occasionally lift the spirits of those who post or lurk here, the vast majority end in failure and only serve to deepen our collective despair and sense of hopelessness.

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2 Name: Subject No. 0 : 2009-07-29 03:37 ID:wC65Bq4Q

Day 1

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Subject No.0

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3 Name: Secret Admirer : 2009-07-29 06:30 ID:N2Wqi2bQ

You have some good skills already. For one, you can cook. A lot of women nowadays can't. You also majored in graphic design, so I assume that your art skills are much better than the average dude's(even if you can't draw, you must have an eye for good design). You've got a piranha, which is very uncommon. You've also done a lot of travelling, and I refuse to believe that you can't get one interesting story out of that.

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4 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-07-29 12:12 ID:B5fkWp0n

Sounded interesting so I decided to join in, I'll try to post while I'm on my trip too

Subject No.01 aka Otakun

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5 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-07-29 12:24 ID:B5fkWp0n

oh by the way... I forgot to mention i'm only in college still trying to get that degree. Plus I forgot I can cook decently... does that help?

Decided to make my story seperate:

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6 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-07-29 12:30 ID:B5fkWp0n

Hey No. 00, do any of those people that you see in college girls? What I was thinking was that coming next semester we make atleast 1 girl a good friend! Just someone that we can rely on and ask for advice. Since we're in practically the same boat, I don't really know how to push ourselves forward...

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7 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-07-29 13:48 ID:wC65Bq4Q

>>3
Thank you for your advice. I would defiantly agree with you about the lack of confidence. I am a big coward in several areas of my life, this is one of the things that I hope to change. The traveling and piranhas would be good conversation starters, I don’t think I have been using those topics to full effect. The graphic design is actually new, I won’t be applying for that major until the spring but it should be a good point. If the cooking is a good point than I guess I’ll have to gain more experience.

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8 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-07-30 03:52 ID:B5fkWp0n

I think the fact that you're changing schools is a good opportunity for experimenting on yourself. Are you leaving anytime soon? Like after this semester or starting this semester in a different school?

I see it like this... since you're leaving your old school you could try getting to know more and more people there. If you mess up you're going somewhere else anyways, and if you don't you can stay in contact with them. The new school is also a whole new opportunity yes? A chance to reinvent yourself. As for me, I'm leaving my current school in the spring for another one, so I'm going to try as much as I can!

9 Name: Subject No. 02 : 2009-07-30 22:07 ID:LafgPt8P

Subject No.02
Sex: Male
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Age: 19

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10 Name: Subject No. 02 : 2009-07-30 22:30 ID:LafgPt8P

So, the next question should be - why am I here? Because I want to know, how it feels to have someone, that loves me. I want to evolve so that I would stop overthinking things and also stop getting friend-zoned all the time. Last year I tried to get together with one girl, but got friend-zoned from the begining, so lost few months trying. But well, I was glad that I did something, even if it didnt't work out. And last but not least - I want to help evolve others. Teamwork ftw:)

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11 Name: urbanlol : 2009-07-31 00:01 ID:J35q3ATY

Subject No.3
Sex: Sexless
Sexual Orientation: Pansexual
Age: 19

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12 Name: Subject No,4 : 2009-07-31 15:56 ID:F1YooOyV

Subject No.4
Sex: Male
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Age: 20

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13 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-08-01 03:10 ID:wC65Bq4Q

Subject No. 01
I’m changing schools starting this fall. I’m going back to my community college to brush up on my art skills. After that I’m applying to a new University. So I guess I will have a place to level up and a place to start over.

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14 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-08-03 04:03 ID:wC65Bq4Q

Day 5

Well it’s been 5 days since I started this project. Since it is the start of a new week I guess I’ll go ahead and make my first one week update. To be honest not too much has happened. The major thing that I have done so far has to do with my wardrobe. I figure if you are going to update your appearance the easiest place to start is with your clothes. Basically I went through my closet and found clothes to discard. To start with I got rid of everything that I did not fit in to, most of it was years old and looked like crap anyway. Then I got rid of things that just looked terrible, a small stack. Lastly I got rid of a LOT of t-shirts. They were a lot of those snarky, sarcastic, anti-social things that kids would were in high school. For me that was the most important removal. Wearing shirts that talk about how stupid people are seems rather counterproductive, and quite frankly they were childish. Now that all that stuff is cleaned out I am only left with the best clothes I have to wear. I don’t have any money to buy new clothes right now but when I do get some I’m going to update my wardrobe.

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15 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-08-06 01:51 ID:wC65Bq4Q

Well I’m about to get some real world practice interacting with a girl on a one on one basis. Today I called up a female friend of main who I have not talked to all summer. We aren’t to close but we do get along well. After talking for a while we eventually got around to possibly meeting up. We are currently working out plans to go to the zoo. This won’t be a date but it’s the closest I’ll have been before. I’ve never actually gone out to do anything one on one with a girl before so this should be a good experience for me.

16 Name: Secret Admirer : 2009-08-07 02:29 ID:hrR4SdXS

>>14
Well, I don't know exactly how witty your t-shirts were, but I know by experience that some of the good ones are actually great conversation starters - and what more, not even initiated by you.

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17 Name: Subject No.5 : 2009-08-07 09:55 ID:kTc/h/Yt

Ah...is it too late for this? I thought it was interesting.

Subject No.5
Sex: Female

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18 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-08-11 04:57 ID:wC65Bq4Q

Day 13

Well this post is a little late in coming. There hasn’t been too much happening sense my last post. I have improved my cooking skills a little. I learned how to cook pesto ravioli, chicken tikka, and carnitas. I not only know how to cook them but I have memorized the recipes so I can cook them from memory. I’ve also started paying a lot more attention to the clothes that I ware. I’ve been favoring button ups over T-shirts and the look a lot better. Over this next week I hope to work things out for the trip to the zoo. I also want to work on getting out of the house more as it can’t be productive to stay inside all the time.

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19 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-08-11 14:10 ID:CRdWQb6o

Day 15ish

I'm posting this from my overseas vacation so spare me on the lack of time awareness. Since I'm really in a different country right now I'm sort of stuck with my last few days. This vacation has been pretty much romanitcally depressing in that when I see a girl that I instantly get attracted to, I already think of two things...

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20 Name: Subject No. 02 : 2009-08-11 22:16 ID:kqeR2Ecu

Well, posting an update on my situation. Truth is, there hasn't really been an improval, mostly because of holiday, as I mentioned before - things will start to move after school starts. On the other hand, I met the girl that ment the world for me, the one which took 5 years of my life. And it shook me quite a lot. Everyone has been saying to me to get over her, hell, I've been trying to do that for such a long time and then I meet some friends we have common and bang, there she is with them and even smiles at me.

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21 Name: Subject No.04 : 2009-08-13 06:02 ID:v9KeymYe

Summer vacation = nothing interesting. There's not much one can do while on summer vacation. However, I am doing a few things, even though they are more related to self-development for my own sake rather than being related to women... oh well, here goes:

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22 Name: Subject No.05 : 2009-08-16 07:06 ID:kTc/h/Yt

Thanks, you guys are all awesome.:D I don't think I'll be able to write every day, but I'll do my best to keep things updated. I'm probably going to complain a lot, so apologies in advance; I know there's a lot of people worse off than me, but that's precisely why I can't really complain to my friends and family. They've all got it a heck of a lot worse.

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23 Name: Subject No.05 : 2009-08-16 07:07 ID:kTc/h/Yt

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24 Name: Secret Admirer : 2009-08-16 23:05 ID:hrR4SdXS

>>23
Sounds like a bit of planning, a bit of daring are putting you on the good way - good luck!

25 Name: Secret Admirer : 2009-08-18 08:01 ID:xa6fYcU7

Words of wisdom for those in this thread:

You can get bros without hos, but you can't get hos without bros.

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26 Name: Subject No.6 : 2009-08-19 12:49 ID:wHMTclMu

This might be already too late. But I’ll try anyways

Subject No.6
Sex: Male

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27 Name: Mr Write : 2009-08-20 06:00 ID:z48dYoJU

>>26

Isn't it obvious?? What you lack is someone to really care about; Be that a girlfriend, or a best friend. Go find someone that you really respect and become close with them.

28 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-08-21 12:09 ID:Bx4i63vf

Yes, I was in Asia. Finally back though and I think I've changed a bit where I'm actively engaging more people now since they can speak english too.

I have a weird day today where my sister told me to stay home... Is she bringing a girl over? lol

29 Name: Subject No.05 : 2009-08-22 03:08 ID:kTc/h/Yt

Glad you had a nice trip. Was your sister really bringing a girl over? You should look into that. It'd be wasteful if she turned out to be attractive and you just let that sort of opportunity slip by.

30 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-08-25 03:02 ID:9pDpka5T

Well this post is very late. I’m under the weather at the moment so I haven’t gotten on the computer in a while. I have a few good things to report. Firstly I have managed to ease my weight down to 258 Lbs. Second I started the fall semester last Saturday. Sadly the class seems to be a dead zone so far as girls go most of the females in the class are between 30 and 40 and of the two that aren’t only one of them is mildly attractive to me at the moment, still I will try to be open minded in my interactions. It’s not a good idea to close a door before you look inside. I still have 3 more classes to look forward to. Lastly I have learned the power of a smile. I’ve come to notice that girls pay a lot more attention to you when you smile especially if it looks genuine. They especially seem to like it if the smile is directed at them. When I say a smile I mean the kind that you get when you are having fun, not one of those cheesy “smile for the camera” smiles. I’ll have to look into this more.

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31 Name: Subject No.7 : 2009-08-31 19:35 ID:uKxkXdad

This seems interesting

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32 Name: Subject No. 02 : 2009-09-05 22:34 ID:0wWRAmT/

It's been awhile since I posted here, but it is as I said - things started to move as soon as school began. First of all, I did some progress in a matter of that girl of my past, that I couldn't forget. I just wrote to her, talked for a while and realized that she chose to be completely other person and that it didn't really interested me what she had to say about herself. This I consider a big step in my evolution because I hope I can finally move on now.

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33 Name: Subject No. 5 : 2009-09-11 08:32 ID:kTc/h/Yt

>Subject No.7

Don't worry about not being able to move on. I broke up with one of my exes like 4+ years ago...well, it's kinda weird to call him an ex now, since he's now one of my closest friends and confidants. I think you should talk to one of your female friends that you think you can trust. It'll strengthen your friendship at the very least if you can build up the guts to tell her your thoughts.

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34 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-09-15 02:10 ID:9pDpka5T

Entry No. 5

Well it has been far too long sense I made an update report. I’d like to say it’s because I’ve been so busy with college, or even better that I’ve been seeing a wonderful young lady. Unfortunately neither is the case. The sad truth is that I have been slipping back into my old slacker ways. However that is not a path I want to stay on, so I pulled myself together to make this report.

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35 Name: 35 : 2009-09-15 04:39 ID:sEyh5l+8

This seems interesting, and I'd like to get in on it. However, I'm pretty content with my situation, so I'd like to just give my honest opinions on this experiment and its subjects.

Subject No. 00: I think you'll be fine, you seem to have a nice drive for yourself. Just don't let that apathetic feeling sink in, and I believe you will do great.

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36 Name: Subject No. 09 : 2009-09-15 09:14 ID:s7iXl2Gk

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Subject No. 09
Sex: Male
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual / Celibate

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37 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-09-16 04:38 ID:Bx4i63vf

Entry 2 - Prepare for a block of text...

So its been a while, and I finally had the chance to read up on what everybody has been doing. All in all, I just have to say keep going! Nothing's going to change if nothing is done!

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38 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-09-18 03:45 ID:9pDpka5T

Well things are looking a bit up with the girl in one of my classes. For identification purposes I will call her “Phones”. When she came in this morning I just decided to take the initiative and I greeted her with a friendly hello. She actually returned my greeting with one of her own and a friendly smile. During the critic and lecture section of the class I sat next to her and made some small comments and observations that she seemed agreeable to. We left class at about the same time and had a little conversation about our work exchanging small compliments and then parted ways. All in all it was a nice little experience. I don’t really expect anything to come from it. It would be nice if something did, even friendship, but I won’t get my hopes up. It’s strange that no one else in the class has actually talked to her. Aside from me I think only one or two people have said more than a few words to her in this class. Still she seems nice and has a rather good personality. It felt good to take control like that and just do what I felt like, a major confidence boost.

39 Name: Subject No. 09 : 2009-09-23 05:48 ID:WMh0TPGP

>>38, sounds like you got a good chance with her. I like the fact that you "took control".

40 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-09-25 02:39 ID:9pDpka5T

Well I suppose it’s about time to make another report. This has been a rather average week with one truly good day. I guess I’ll start with the basic stuff. First on the list of small changes is that I have just recently discovered that I like tea, a lot. As far as character traits go I think it’s a rather good one. I’m going to have to look into the subject more as I don’t think there are many 21 year old men who like to drink tea over coffee. Second I have started paying more attention to my hygiene. I have never been dirty mind you, but I have fallen into that subpar state that often afflicts college students. I have also started organizing the files on my computer. It’s chalked full of images that I will never need and I feel that getting my computer organized is just as important as my room.

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41 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-09-28 23:30 ID:NdRvti4L

Subject No. 10
Sex: Male
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual/Involuntary celibate
Age: 26

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42 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-09-28 23:33 ID:NdRvti4L

My faults include no self-esteem, self-sabotaging, severe shyness, overthinking, paranoia, depression, comparing myself to everyone else and holding myself to impossibly high standards, extreme pessimism, and lack of trust. I am an extremely cynical bastard about many things, but I'm also a naive, foolish idealist at the same time about lots of others. I am a defeatist. I expect the unfavorable outcome almost every time. This can range from not getting excited over things I should to remaining silent when I should speak up to doubting my own and often correct conclusions and/or second-guessing my right and appropriate actions. This is how I self-sabotage myself.

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43 Name: Subject No.11 : 2009-09-29 01:12 ID:+JutJJe4

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Subject No.11
Sex: Male
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual

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44 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-01 19:57 ID:NdRvti4L

So I went to an event at the school with my friend. Since I couldn't get through to her when I called, I asked my friend to call, but she got no answer either. We went to get a bite to eat in the dining hall and my friend got up and ran into her and told her to say hi to me, so I saw her, but only for five minutes.

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45 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-01 23:35 ID:9pDpka5T

Hay No. 10 and No.11, its good to have you with us.

Its once again time for another weekly update. Most of the week has been completely boring. In fact if it weren't for today there really wouldn't be anything worth posting. I had class with Phones again. We spent most of the class talking about our class work. We still had a good bit of fun and there were smiles and laughs not much different from last time. I'm trying real hard not do do this like i want to be her friend, but part of having no experience is not having a good idea of what counts as flirting and what counts as friendly banter. I did make one small step forward in the way i interact with her, I touched her for the first time. One thing that I have been hearing a lot is that if you want a girl to see you as a potential partner then you have to touch her. It was only a touch on her arm and shoulder couple of times but it was still a big step for me as I've never had the initiative to just touch a girl when i wanted to. After class I asked her to go to DC with me to check out art museums. Unfortunately she works weekends and declined. On the upside she was not put off by the invitation. I think I'll Invite her to do something smaller next week. I fell kind of stupid for not asking for her number though.

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46 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-02 01:21 ID:NdRvti4L

>>45
No. 00

It's good to work while you're in college, but beware, your grades will most likely suffer. It is essential though to avoid the quarter-life crisis. I would recommend not just getting any job though. School is important. When you're not in school though, you should be working to build your network and skills in the real world, but you need to be working jobs related to your studies or this most likely won't do you much, so intern if you have to, work for nothing, just stay busy between semesters doing something productive. Sitting around ended when you graduated high school. Yeah, you can take the last month off if you worked all summer, but that's just about it. Don't kill yourself. Life loses meaning if you become a slave.

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47 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-02 03:32 ID:9pDpka5T

>>46

My reason for wanting the job is not just to have money to spend but also because my family needs it. I live with my mom and shes been out of work for 2 years so I kind of need to help out.

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48 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-02 04:27 ID:NdRvti4L

>>47
That is unfortunate that the family needs the extra cash, but you do what you have to, right? Still, remember what I said for work between semesters at least. It won't be easy but it will pay off when you graduate and have a decent job that puts your skills/education to use instead of sitting at home, feel like your life is going nowhere. Of course, there's no guarantee you will, but you chances will increase dramatically. I know this commodifies everyone, but make connections WHEREVER you can with WHOEVER you can, because it's not only important who you know, but who THEY know as well, because if your connections don't know anyone, they're not much good now, are they? Most degrees of separation are greater than 1 but less than 5. I know this is extremely difficult for us introverts, but basically the mantra is network or perish. This applies to all fields, of course. I'm not sure if any one more than the other, however.

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49 Name: Subject No. 01 : 2009-10-03 09:12 ID:Bx4i63vf

Its nice to hear that everybody is doing something for themselves. Hang in there everyone!

Time for another one of my sporatic updates. So far being a spontaneous, but semi-competent club leader has forced me to open up. I've had to talk to a lot of people about so many things, whether its administrative or club activity related. I even find it easier talking to some of the cuter girls in the club. Still, I know I'm still not confident or brave enough to ask any of them out. I'm not sure if I even have the qualifications to be a good boyfriend at this point Orz.

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50 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-03 14:07 ID:NdRvti4L

Well, what kind of signs do you have to base your standing with this girl? Does she seem friendly and receptive? Are you able to hold a conversation?

If everything's been going well so far, then just go with it and enjoy the ride. Don't start overthinking things. You must let go and trust your feelings. However, don't expect anything to happen either. It's a delicate balance, I know. As you build a rapport with this girl, your confidence should build as well. I wouldn't say ask her out, but just try to get her to spend some time with you first, see if there's truly anything there, then eventually you'll have to see her alone as well if you haven't by then. I know seeing each other one on one can be intimidating at first, especially if she's shy as well, so I would recommend a group setting for the first encounter outside of the club. Good luck.

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51 Name: Subject No. 5 : 2009-10-04 09:52 ID:kTc/h/Yt

Good luck to ya, 00. It really seems like you know what you're doing, and everyone else seems to have said anything worth saying, so I'll do my part and believe that your efforts will be rewarded somehow.

Anyhow, it's about time I made another entry...

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52 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-09 18:41 ID:9pDpka5T

Well it’s time for another update. This week was rather a boring. I mostly did school work, although I did get some reading in and that was nice. I also managed to choose the mangas I wanted to put away. I replaced the empty space with videogames, I figure those are a little more respectable than mangas, although I still have a whole 6ft book shelf full of mangas left. In the realm of money things are worse. My mom failed to get the job she was hoping for and I still haven’t found anything myself. I gave my last $12 to help cover bills.

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53 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-09 19:21 ID:NdRvti4L

I don't think dropping by where she works is a good idea, unless she knows that you know this. It sets off my stalker flag.

>The most likely explanation is that she was sick of course.
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54 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-10 20:48 ID:NdRvti4L

I wrote on M's wall, asking if she was in any shows and to let me know so I can come see her perform, because I'd figure she'd notice a wall post sooner than a message. She hasn't gotten back to me yet, but it's only been about a week. If I don't get a response, soon though, I will attempt reaching her by phone. E told me the dates of the show. It's this weekend and next weekend, but I'd rather M told me she's in it herself, when the dates are, and that she'd like to see me, unless this is what she intended, for E to tell me or for me to find out myself. It's not a big deal as long as she's just as happy to see me as I will be to see her, and putting myself out there like this fully knowing that she may not know is absolutely terrifying. And I'm bringing a flower, of course. I haven't decided when I'm going to see it though. I think once is enough, so probably the second week, closing night if I can manage it.

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55 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-10 20:51 ID:NdRvti4L

The most likely cause of the problem is the thermocoupler. Basically, it's a fail safe so gas doesn't leak into the house. However, my dad tried to relight the pilot with a blowtorch, so he probably fucked the entire thing, like cutting vegetables with a machete, which would mean we'd need a new water heater, and money's tight as it is. I read a post on a message board that supports this outcome, but might as well try the "easier" solution first, except it probably would be easier to just replace the whole damn thing in this case, but not cheaper.

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56 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-10 20:54 ID:NdRvti4L

It's not like I haven't been looking for a job though. I can't even get hired at the local pharmacy though. I never get any responses to any applications I fill out or resumes I send. Although, I could be looking better and more. Job hunting is just so depressing though. I don't need more of that shit. I've considered having my resume professionally revised, but it's expensive. I looked into it and need to think it over. Basically, I would need two different ones. One targeted towards jobs related to my career, and one targeted at just getting a fucking "job" job.

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57 Name: Secret Admirer : 2009-10-10 23:21 ID:XgpG7EkD

SN10,I must say it sucks to be you @_@'

Joke aside, it sucks to be alive, so you are in good company. Well, I guess you don't give a dam about that, do you? ^_^ Apart from all that negativity, I must congratulate you on the smiley she sent you, I can only speculate on the magnitude of the internal struggle that led to the emission of that single ideogram. This back patting being complete, I must warn you that you should not underestimate the fuckness of her circumstances. Having a nice face is no protection against life shittiness and internal mindfuck. If she complains, assume she has good reasons to. After all, if it was so easy, she would have solved her problems long ago, don't you think? Thing is, you both seem to be love idealists. That makes things even more complicated, but at least you should understand each other quite well...

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58 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-13 16:54 ID:9pDpka5T

Well, In the end I did not go see Phones at work. Like No.10 said that would be creepy and she was probably just sick. I've been doing a lot better since then.

I got a small bit of practice with a girl at the local organic supermarket. She was a cute red head working the bags at the register. Our eyes met when I got in line. When I looked at her again I caught her looking at me and this made me smile. To my surprise she smiled back and quickly looked away. I figured I'm to big of a coward to take this to far but why not play for a bit. I spent the next little while making eyes with this girl. It went well and when I left I told her to have a nice day with my best smile, she seemed to like that. I guess the moral of this is that its good to smile at people for real. It was a huge confidence booster.

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59 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-13 20:22 ID:NdRvti4L

>>57
Negative! I cannot do that. You are living in a fantasy world. It's too late. I can't do this on my own. I need help and they're not going to pitch in. One person could not possibly tackle this on his or her own. I have assumed quite a bit responsibility, but there are many things I refuse to do, and reprimand them over. It's not my fucking house. The deed isn't in my name. I refuse to allow them to pass all responsibility on to me, and they certainly would if I did.

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60 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-13 20:26 ID:NdRvti4L

She didn't send me a smiley TO me. she commented on her own status with it. She has yet to write on my wall or comment on a picture. I don't know why. But I need to start stepping things up with her, even if it's just something small, like this. I don't care if she's screwed up, and yes, it does help to be pretty, at least there's a chance people will actually approach you. We're all fucked up, just to varying degrees and some people handle it better than others. I don't care if she is, I am too, so who am I to judge? And I'm going to get her. I will succeed this time! I cannot fail!

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61 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-13 20:28 ID:NdRvti4L

>>58

>The odd thing is I'm not just afraid of getting rejected, I think I'm also afraid of her liking me back. I think "What if this works and we start going out just for her to realize I'm boring."
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62 Name: Subject No. 00 : 2009-10-13 23:02 ID:ejF1EASi

>>61

I definitely will not let it turn into a sense of entitlement. Its more of a feeling like "Ok I've failed enough times that I can see some of the places that I have messed up before. And besides, statistically speaking I should have some form of success soon." I think the events in the organic food store show that its not impossible for me to interact with women on a more than friendly level.

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63 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-14 02:50 ID:NdRvti4L

>>62
Hey, I didn't mean any offense by it. I understand how you feel. I feel and think the same way. I've screwed up enough times and hopefully learned from my mistakes that hopefully, I won't screw up this time. No, I won't screw up this time. It will happen.

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64 Name: Subject No. 11 : 2009-10-15 00:44 ID:fAn4DIT5

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Subject No.11
Sex: Female
Sexual Orientation: Pansexual

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65 Name: Subject No. 11 : 2009-10-15 00:48 ID:fAn4DIT5

(1st post was too long)

Changes- I'd like to be more affable, I suppose. I'm tired of people avoiding me, or hating me because I tell them that they treat me like shit. There are some physical things I'd like to change too, but it's hard to be one of the 'cute' girls when you're tall, very broad-shouldered, and muscular. :/ If I can't be more likable to people, I'd like to at least not care when I get rejected again and again. I want to have someone where I can tell everything to, and not have to worry about rejection

66 Name: Subject No. 12 : 2009-10-15 14:49 ID:6MLRG7Kc

I meant to post this a while ago, so I guess I'll just do it now. I'll divide it.

Subject No. 12

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67 Name: Subject No. 12 : 2009-10-15 15:01 ID:6MLRG7Kc

Extras: I graduated last June, and I still have no idea what I really want to do. At the moment, I want to find a job so I can save up for college, which I plan on going to next year. I've also grown rather lonely since graduation and I haven't had much contact with other people offline in quite some time. I haven't had much luck when it comes to relationships, either. I also have some self-esteem issues, which may or may not be related. I've been job hunting since before I graduated, and I still haven't found anything. When I was still in school, getting a job didn't seem that bad. Lately, I've been finding myself afraid to do just that... Although I miss social interaction with others, I seem to be scared to leave my "comfort" zone.

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68 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-15 22:27 ID:9pDpka5T

Hay everyone I really don't have the heart for a long update today. Firstly Id like to welcome No.11 and No.12, I hope we can all help each other out.

Things with Phones were shit this week. She came back to class today, Terns out she was just sick. We had a rather good time talking and working togeather. I was at the top of my game. No anxiety or any thing. Unfortunately as we were leaving class the course of our conversation lead to the discovery that she had a boyfriend. Feels like shit. The worst part isn't that shes taken, it's that for the first time in my life I thought I could do it, get a girlfriend. The way things are now I Don't have any chance of getting a girlfriend for the rest of the semester. Its like "OK, now I know how to deal with girls, but there aren't any girls around." still I guess we could be friends. REAL friends, not "I'll just wait till they break up and then shes mine" friends. I'll post some other stuff later, need to go sulk and do work.

69 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-16 01:06 ID:NdRvti4L

I'm sorry to hear that #00. Unfortunately, this is a fact of life. I have heard of women dropping the word "boyfriend" just to discourage guys, but I think she's telling the truth. There are ways to sneak in the question of the boyfriend without just flat out saying it. They slip my mind at this moment, however. Also, do you really think you can be her friend without it affecting you? Consider this before doing so, because once you are friends, it will be hard to not be friends, making any feelings you have for her that much harder on you. You may become the guy she turns to with all her relationship problems.

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70 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-16 22:30 ID:9pDpka5T

At my lowest point in a while an attractive, single, female friend calls me, Out of the fucking blue. She wants to go see were the wild things are, RIGHT NOW. She called because she wanted to see it specifically with ME. She lives half a tank of gas away, a half a tank I can not afford. The only way I could see her is if my friend drives us. Ether way I'm to tied up with school shit to go tonight. I HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW!!!

71 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-16 23:06 ID:NdRvti4L

Hang on, if this is THAT important, see if your friend will take you. It's worth a shot. You'll owe them big though. If not, what did you say to the girl your reason was you couldn't go?

72 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-23 02:59 ID:9pDpka5T

Hay. I know my last post was a downer but things are better I guess. I know today is my post day but I'm dead in the water. I'll make a real post tomorrow. For now I'll just say I'm back on the hunt, leveling heard, and getting stronger every day. I'll post for real in the mourning.

73 Name: Subject No.01 : 2009-10-23 05:28 ID:Bx4i63vf

Hi guys, long time no report. I took a risk, and it paid off!
Although I can't go into specifics I did it! sorta! anyways I'll still be a lurker and advice giver from now on. First I gotta catch up

74 Name: Subject No. 13 : 2009-10-23 07:14 ID:6Awwro5G

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Subject No.13
Sex: Female
Sexual Orientation: Bi sexual / Celibate (I'm attracted to both, but I hadn't even kissed in, like, 3 years)

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75 Name: Subject No. 13 : 2009-10-23 07:14 ID:6Awwro5G

>>74
Activities: sit at the computer and lurk /cm/ and pixiv for moar yaoi, I also do some nail art I'm going to sell with friend no2 (she designs clothes)

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76 Name: Subject No.01 : 2009-10-23 07:35 ID:Bx4i63vf

Okay so after a long reading of everything from my last post to my most recent one I have to say that I missed a whole lot.

For your individual situations I can only say do what you think is right and tell you what worked for me. This might be a little long too.

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77 Name: Subject No.01 : 2009-10-23 07:36 ID:Bx4i63vf

Okay so after a long reading of everything from my last post to my most recent one I have to say that I missed a whole lot.

For your individual situations I can only say do what you think is right and tell you what worked for me. This might be a little long too.

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78 Name: Subject No.01 : 2009-10-23 07:37 ID:Bx4i63vf

my bad for double post

5. Information: This one is short and simple, remember every freakin detail. If you don't be honest in your screw up and apologize sincrely, but hey if you can pull off forgeting as a joke kudos to you. Get the right information early so you don't find out if she's taken late in the game. Remembering minor details like her being left handed when he/she is impressive if you use it correctly, just don't be creepy about it.

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79 Name: Subject No.01 : 2009-10-23 07:51 ID:Bx4i63vf

>>75

Subject No.13, I hate to sound rude... but are you freakin serious!? This sounded like something that needed to be up on the personal issues board.

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80 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-24 04:08 ID:9pDpka5T

OK, so it's not the mourning but better late than never right?

No.13 I'm sorry to hear that things are going so poorly for you. Definitely listen to No.01, he has the right of it.

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81 Name: Subject No.01 : 2009-10-24 05:24 ID:Bx4i63vf

Sounds like you're starting to develop the "aloof heart" lol. Its nice to hear that you're not letting what happened a few days get to you and living for the moment. Try joining a campus organization! Try to turn attention to yourself in a good way. Good luck No. 00

82 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-10-24 06:27 ID:NdRvti4L

>>75
No. 13, if you're serious, don't kill yourself. It is a selfish thing to do and you will create problems for those you love. Perhaps what you need to do is live on your own. It will take a while, but moving out and being completely autonomous sounds like the best solution to me. And there has to be a better solution than killing your aunt. Has she done anything illegal? Get her arrested then.

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83 Name: Subject No. 12 : 2009-10-29 23:31 ID:NA/I6IJ8

Hey there. I haven't updated in two weeks. Not much has happened to be honest. I went out to play tennis last week and had planned to go play again yesterday. Unfortunately, it rained.

My resolve to do anything is sort of dying day by day. I find myself unable to do some things that I enjoyed before... I've been going outside a little more (went for a walk today, too.) Seeing some school buses go by made me realize how much that I've taken for granted... I miss going to school and interacting with others. I miss all of the walking I did in the school buildings. I generally miss being around others and I didn't realize how much it mattered to me until it was over...

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84 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-10-29 23:48 ID:9pDpka5T

This world runs on money, Filthy, Stinking money. And I have none. Still no improvement on the money front, and of course every girl I know wants me to come and spend money with them. Well maybe not "every" girl I know, but the fun attractive ones yes.

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85 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-11-08 06:21 ID:9pDpka5T

Well every one, it’s a little late but here is my update. Lately I’ve been thinking that everything in life is balanced on a scale. As some things get worse others must get better. Money is tighter than ever, and things are on the edge of a knife. I’ve heard that people often become desperate in this kind of situations, when life gets harder, and things seem almost hopeless. But I don’t feel that way. If anything, the best in me seems to have come out. Over the past week or so, my confidence has increased greatly. I don’t feel so uncomfortable around the few women that I see. I feel like I see things more clearly. My weight has gone down some more. Another week or two and I’ll hit 250lbs. I also beat another game this week, Okami. When I got to the end I was very tempted to go seek out every little side quest to complete. But instead, I simply sat down and finished. For most people this probably would not be so big a thing. I almost never finish a game. I’m always flitting from one thing to the next, so I never finish what I start. I think this is a start of fixing that. I want to be someone who finishes what they start, even if I’m afraid of how things end.

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86 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-11-09 17:02 ID:NdRvti4L

>>84

>This world runs on money, Filthy, Stinking money. And I have none. Still no improvement on the money front,
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87 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-11-09 17:04 ID:NdRvti4L

I received no response, so midway through the week, I wrote on her wall again, asking if she figured out if she could go. Still no response, so last night, after some discussion with E, I decided to call her. Of course she didn't answer, and I didn't bother leaving a message. I considered calling her again the next day or the day of the show, but I didn't want to annoy her, so I didn't. I'm beginning to feel like I need a personal messenger to correspond with her. Nothing it seems is effective in reaching her other than face-to-face meetings. I'm also thinking she doesn't have a clue I'm into her. I asked E about calling her again, she has no idea. I'm completely lost. What the hell do I have to do to get to this girl?

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88 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-11-10 03:49 ID:9pDpka5T

I don't know if this is really an update but I just kind of needed to get this of my chest. I had a dream last night. I was siting at a college cafe talking to a girl. She was cute if a little chubby. She was one of those girls that likes to play video games casually, loves the BBC, and doesn't really care about fashion or waring make up. We were just sort of talking about nothing when suddenly she starts blushing and says "hay you want to bounce later?" I should have realized that this was a dream after that strange sentence but my brain just sort of rolled with it and translated bounce as [to hang out with connotations of dating]. She Looks away after asking me and I could tell she was thinking something like "What the hell am I doing? I'm just 'one of the guys'. There's no way any one would want to go out with me" I just sort of sit there for a bit, thinking about how lucky I am that a girl would not only like me, but like me enough to ask me out. I of course say yes. And just as I'm hitting the peek of my joy, my mind reminds me that this is to good to be true and that I rely should just wake up. I do of course, and find myself sitting alone in my bed. Felt like shit. Like I said, not really an update but I just had to vent, feels better now.

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89 Name: Subject No. 14 : 2009-11-10 06:57 ID:sx2eIFUC

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Subject No. 14
Sex: Female
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual

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90 Name: Subject No. 5 : 2009-11-10 08:29 ID:kTc/h/Yt

Entry No. IFORGETSOITS5NOWKTNXBYE

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91 Name: Subject No. 10 : 2009-11-10 15:03 ID:NdRvti4L

>>88
I have asked her, and when I get an opportunity again, I will ask her again. Did you at least skim back and see if I did? No, there is never a "right time." But in my last update, I said I got no response about the event I suggested. I'm not giving up. She seems to be the type where you just have to keep hammering away because of how she's unresponsive to outsiders. I am however, holding off on flat out telling her that I like her until we spend some time together, but I'm reconsidering this, since that plan has gone nowhere.

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92 Name: Subject No.01 : 2009-11-13 08:06 ID:Bx4i63vf

Hey guys, just checking in... looks like a lot has been going on! From reading back on what everybody is going I don't have much to say but this: Try to live life without regrets rather than regret not living. The past might be holding you back, but you can't let it. Do what feels right and the moment and don't hesitate because of fear of being turned down. Sometimes it requires that leap of faith for you to reach what your heart desires.

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93 Name: Subject No.93 : 2009-11-14 16:42 ID:mJ5mRmlV

Stats
Subject No.93
Sex: Female
Sexual Orientation: Homosexual

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94 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-11-17 21:39 ID:9pDpka5T

>>89
Hay, welcome to the group. I don't know how you feel about this but you might try going after guys rather than waiting for one to want you. A lot of the nicer guys are shy and would love for a girl to ask them out. Where are you meeting these bad guys?

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95 Name: Subject No.00 : 2009-11-21 21:40 ID:9pDpka5T

Well there's good shit and bad shit all around. to start of the bad shit I got a $75 ticket for blowing through a red light. I did not have enough time to stop and it turned red just as I entered the crossing. I don't have the money to pay this.

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96 Name: Subject No.15 : 2009-11-22 06:47 ID:16RhZr78

Stats
Subject No. 15 (I think 93 mistook the line)
Sex: Male
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual

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97 Name: Subject No.15 : 2009-11-22 07:10 ID:16RhZr78

Separate post for room.

Sorry to butt in, I felt this was interesting after reading a lot and wanted in on it.

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98 Name: Subject No.7 : 2010-02-04 05:34 ID:uKxkXdad

I fell in love with my best friend

now i've stopped returning her hugs and just letting her embrace me. it really bothers me when she hugs me and then says "i just wanted a homo moment, teehee"

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