Holy shit. I read this and couldn't get over how perfectly I related to this. I'm 20, sort of shy introverted guy going to college using classwork to suppress thoughts. Until recently anyway. I'm actually cooking pie as we speak and a girl (crazy, I know) who has been actually expressing some sort of tentative interest in me said she wants to come try it when it's done.
I think I'm going to swim.
Goddam I'm getting in. I can see the shore.
It's right there, and it's so pretty and warm and filled with new experiences.