I've been approached by someone (through a mutual friend, of course - because I guess she can't be fucking straightforward with me) who wants to go out. She's perfectly nice, smart, and all that. I get the feeling her personality and mine wouldn't mesh so well. She's the extremely active type, while I would rather slam my hand in a car door twenty times than go to a club. But you never know about how such things will work out until you try them, right?
There's still another problem. I don't find this woman attractive. I mean, she's basically pretty, I guess - in a "normal" way, you know - there's nothing wrong with that, but it does nothing for me at all. I have a serious problem with attraction to women. And no, I'm not gay. I've checked. If anything, I'm just a deviant. I have a load of porn and it's almost entirely 2D, if that gives you any clue. Almost all pretty, perfectly normal women do nothing for me, or else they actively turn me off.
So what do I do? Go along with it? Pretend I'm normal? If I followed my deviant desires I'd end up living and dying alone, and I don't want to have that kind of life. At the same time, the thought of settling pisses me off. I know I can't have what I want, but does that mean I have to put with something I don't want for the rest of my life? I have two choices and they're both shitty.