I work, a lot. I save up money. When i have enough, I retreat.
I haven't been touched by a sun beam, or moon beam in almost four years. Literally, I have been in one room. A friend of mine brings me food, good food, very healthy.
I am socially masterful. I am very hard working, and highly skilled. I attract many friends, and lovers. I am admired by many, and even arouse jealousy in others.
I retreat because people make me sad. I feel their fear, their sadism, and the death behind their eyes. I can't take it. It drives me insane, and makes me suicidal. I retreat to survive.
I'm just learning this hikki term, and I'm not like the people I've see portrayed. First of all, I refuse to play video games. I love them, but it's just too numbing, to powerful.