Hello. I was introduced to japanese porn a few years ago and I can honestly say I am glad I did. In japanese porn, I found people who expressed all the fetishes I like.

One of my absolute favorites though is bukkake.
In porno-movies, my main interest is the last seconds of an act ( the male orgasm ) and something turns me on seeing a woman completely drenched in intriguing liquids.

Me myself, I was teased all through elementary school because of my looks. I got acne real early, so I was very "unique" and i stood ouf of the crowd ( mainly due to other interests, like videogames etc. )

Now, I can honestly say I have never had a real girlfriend.
From my own point of view, my personality is very vulnerable, and I easily cry if offended. I have a big interest in computers, and usually spend most of my time doing nothing except watching porn at this stupid machine.

Now, my self-asteem is not that great, and while I do like people, I usually enjoy being by myself. It's secure and I don't have to handle interactions with people who might not like my existence.

My question is: Do you think my personality and my history can be the reason to why I like love bukkake so much? Am I a weak person who needs control, just because I feel insecure in public? Could this be a reason why I have had no luck with girls?

Also, am I sick for loving bukkake?

Please give good and encouraging answers.