Although this may not be the friendliest advice, death is the worst...you think that death may end the pain of loneliness...but it ends everything. When you die...you can't feel anything anymore. You can't think anymore. There most likely isn't an afterlife, where you can be all happy and stuff. You'll just cease to be. As bad as life gets...I am terrified of death...The ability to feel and think and be is more precious than you think...at the moment approaching death, you will feel it begin to all slip away...and then the fear sets in...you will want to change your mind...but you may not be able to. You will have wasted all the opportunities you could have had and traded it for nothing.