Everyone is different. You can't expect everyone to be the same don't you? It's good that you express yourself to the world.
Everyone that has hard time in life for you have a steady life. But you're beginning to feel some emptiness right? You want to do something different and trying to go out with a girl. Don't worry, your time would come.
And hell, don't go for sex change. Be happy and proud of yourself as a male. Lots of prayers would help.
-All the best- :)