Thanks, everyone. I really do appreciate it.
As I said before, I don't necessarily see myself as gay. I still think females are attractive, but I picture myself in that gender role more than anything else.
And yes, I have cross-dressed, but as I said, I have this strange arbitrary feeling about it being ultimately unsatisfying to go partway on this. It doesn't feel right to just dress as a girl.
Thanks again for everything. I still have some thinking to do about this, but this is helpful.