I feel deprived of the future.

When I was a kid, I would see movies and stuff with dial-up modems and outdated mobile phones, people using Windows 95 computers and older kids playing with game-boys. To me, that's what I would have when I grew up. I was going to be a teenager one day, and I would have a pentium laptop or an iBook with a cable to get online, a Game Boy Color, etc.

Even now from time to time, I'll go through some 90s computing stuff and it still feels fundamentally like the future that was being promised to me, like it's still going to arrive one day. I habitually buy random 90s game consoles and some old computers because of this, but they never achieve that important feeling of it actually being real because that's not the time I'm living in, and modern websites don't work on old hardware most of the time.

Even more rationally, when I look at political history there are so many instances where I get the most horrible feeling that we went wrong, we took the wrong route and it doomed us. These are all very boring though. In summary, it feels governments have surrendered their primary economic powers to improve the well-being of the majority of people, trivializing politics and leaving us heading down a very scary path. Throw in the growing spectre of surveillance and things start to look very nasty.

I sometimes get the same feeling looking at old internet cultural artefacts from <2010, that too is a future that is being promised to me but not coming. UMPCs and the like gave way to smartphones, but I still fell like since I live in the future I should have a UMPC. I'll never get what I want, But I'm stuck with it: The future isn't coming.