these few months, my parents have been fighting a lot that they ended up divorced, it was pretty devastating to see my own parents split like that, but i thought was alright cos my gf was always by my side, but that month when my parents divorced, my gf started talking cold towards me that we end up breaking up. i had a panic attack that i couldnt breathe cos having my mother leave the house was pretty emotional for me, not to mention having my girlfriend leave me made it even worst.
ever since the panic attack, ive been having breathing problems, like i feel my whole body numb and get really dizziness, and now i even feel like someone's pressing they're thumb against my throat that it feels like someones choking me. it gets worst if i sometimes argue with my ex. even if i dont talk to my ex i stll get that choking feeling, it happens like every 5- 10 mins, i really feel like everyone i love or cherish leaves me. in the past i had my best friend randomly ditch me after 4 years of friendship because her bf felt we were to close + 3 years ago i had a really depressed state that i was sent to a counsellor
i just feel like everyones leaving me, makes me really depressed, but im trying to like hang in there, im really on the urge of just throwing my self infront of the road and have a car just smash my head in to a million pieces to end this pain. i started working hoping it could distract me, but even during work i feel the choking in my throat, i really dont know what to do.
maybe you should just man up and stop worrying so much about people leaving you. Many people leave and and many people will come into your life as you grow older. I do honestly feel bad for you that this all happened at the same time, but what can you do? Being nervous and trying to cling to what you have left isn't going to do anything; panicking isn't going to do anything; and being depressed isn't going to do anything. What happened, happened. The only thing you can do now is to move on. I don't know if you're religious or not, but maybe you should go to your religion (if you don't have one, maybe a support group) to help you out with this tough time. But in the end, it's up to you whether you want to wallow in your sorrow or man up and move on.