Hello. I've never posted here before, but I have been lurking for quite some time. Of all the boards I've seen online this seems the most mature, so hopefully I'll get some advice at least.
I have a problem. And that problem is other people who think I have a problem. I'm a paranoid schizophrenic who sees, hears and feels people who aren’t there. You know what? I'm fine with that. I've always been fine with that. The problem is that I've never told anybody about it. I guess you could say I'm "in the closet" about my insanity.
How does the paranoia fit in?
Surely you've been to doctors before. Have you been formally diagnosed and stuff?
There was a film about that guy who won a nobel (mathematics IIRC), and who has a schizoic problem, just like you, being able to interact with these people. It's a little romanced I guess, but based on a true story. Well during his life, that guy became more and more paranoiac. He almost killed his kid. All of that due to persons he imagined.
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(1) "You know, even though this a big derail, I'd like to ask you another question out of sheer curiosity."
It's only depressing at times of real crisis. Though you have to remember that these are not my only friends. I do have flesh and blood friends who can help me with physical problems.
In fact, I also think this is awesome. It's almost like a (rational) lucid dream, but you're awake. Or am I wrong?
"In fact, I also think this is awesome. It's almost like a (rational) lucid dream, but you're awake. Or am I wrong?"
Not really. In a lucid dream, you have control over your environment and the actions that people take. In my case, I have as little control over Tim and Nadia's actions as I would anybody on the street.
Hey, if it's bothering you and you don't know how to fix it, it's worth seeing a doctor. If it's just a chemical imbalance, you should consider medication as you would for any other illness.
You don't need to tell people around you about it, if they know, tell them that you saw a doctor and its no big deal. if you don't wanna lie, go see a doctor, but don't take any pills from him. Also, you can try explaining to them that you are well aware that these personalities are not physically real and you don' take what they say as facts. (eg, tim can't tell you that your gf cheated on you for example, cause how the hell would he know if YOU don't know)
Commence nitpick: You're mixing both schizophrenia & DID/MPD (MPO?). Since they're not the same thing; why are you doing that?
Other than that, uhm, hmmm. I can relate to some of what you're discussing.