For as long as I can remember from my middle school life- I have lived a complete wholesome lie. It's not one huge lie such as "I have cancer" or something- but tiny snippets of lies that just manifest and have the same affect as a big lie. I recently lost a best friend of 6 years to communication failure, my insecurity and my passionate love and affection for that best friend. After graduating from high school. I began to look at my life. That it wasn't bad.. but the things was. I didn't live it honestly.
It's good that you came to this type of conclusion.After all, people who really care about you will always see through your lies,...
As for your previous friends; it's no big deal. If they are worth it, they will stay around
That whole list of lies you've been living can be made true on one afternoon if you go to a decent party. Nobody can call you a liar if you make it all true.