Hi there, anons.
Have you ever felt like this?
I mean, ive made it to get to the college with a schoolarship, i dont have any problem with my parents and a decent romance history. But i cant help thinking like i dont deserve anything of that because, i dont know, "A lazy idiot like me is not worth of a schoolarship, or parents love, you should learn how tough the life is".
Nobody deserves anything. In the long term, shit just happens because of processes too complex for any lone human to understand.
This goes both ways. You don't deserve to have an easy life or a tough one. You don't deserve to be happy or to suffer. If it happens, it happens.
Sounds like impostor syndrome. People who fall on a certain range on the Dunning-Kruger chart tend to get it. I'll leave you to figure out which part.
I have achieved nothing and I deserve everything.