Because I think a lot of people here could use it, including myself. There are many here with lots of insight, and obviously many who come here who have problems, so I thought we could post some things about our lives (that is, our successes, and our failures, thoughts, and so on) and receive insight and support from each other, and also because, as a very wise man once said "You never know what you're really thinking until you write it down". (hope this is as good an idea as it sounds in my head lol)

So, I'll start off here, hopefully I can give you a better idea of what I'm thinking of.

Today I looked in the mirror and saw that I had really improved my body, and my style, and I really liked the way I looked. I've been working out for the past several months (sans most of the holiday vacation, plus a little time off for a minor surgery) so I'm glad to see it's paid off.

I also realized I promised to give my mom a christmas present (that is, to re-do a part of her house) but I keep forgetting to do it! AGH! Although in my defense, I had a surgery just before the holidays, so I was doped up and laid up for a while up to and afterward.

I'm wondering, how could he prosecute them (if he chooses to)?

What are his options?

Why is my family the very first ones to turn their back on me when I ask for their support? I've been with them whenever they needed me. I abandoned my passion and got into whatever they assigned me.

Stop telling me to talk to my family or loved ones. As soon as they found out, I've become an outcast, an embarrassment to them, a stain in the family's medical history. They now have to answer yes when doctors ask about family history only because of me. It's my fault. They want to get rid of me asap, and make it as if I've never existed in the first place.

Maybe I got the definition of family wrong. I hope so. Otherwise, why? I'm not dirty. I haven't done anything. It just happened. I didn't wish for it. Nobody would wish for it. So, why is it my fault?

I'm so pathetic that all I can do is post on some text board on the net. Now that I have it, I can't wait for stage 4. I can deal with it but not the people who blame it on me, the people who are supposedly my loved ones.

Does anyone have any advice for me or experiences they can share?
Oh, and I don't know what to wear.

I'm a factory worker in Illinois. I'm female and will turn 24 years old in September. I attended one semester of community college the fall after graduating high school, but discontinued work to get a job and have not gone to school on campus since. Last year I started taking online classes through the same community college campus and in May I will have completed four classes in this way.

I want to go back to college, and I want to go to a state university, and live on campus in a dorm. At 24+ years old, is this possible? It seems to me that I never hear of people over the age of 22 going to university let alone living in dorms/a sorority/ect. It seems logical there would be an age limit on who can live in campus housing, but I don't know if that's a fact.

I also have no idea as to where to start looking for financial aid or if I'm even eligible at this age, especially after taking such a break from school.

All the Internet communities I lurked over the years that become intolerable and I can't stand the places anymore namely due to "immaturity" and "commoners" (tainting from "normal" people and overrunning places). I don't even feel as if I can go to another community, since I have no interests and the people there are just too out-of-touch.

I can't stand being in the places I'm in and I have no where else to go nor anything else to do.

I'm curious about this because my personal life is very hiki-like and yet I have a full-time job. For a few years I was totally hikikomori without any employment, but through a stroke of luck I finally did get a job which let me fully support myself. Even after two years though, I have no life outside of work. All my friends and social contacts slipped away during the years I was locked inside my apt as an unemployed recluse, and I haven't made any new friends even after I started working. I thought after starting work again my life would return to normal but it hasn't as I'm still drowning under this inexplicable apathy and no longer care about hobbies I used to have. If not apathy then I feel irrational fear and anxiety. When not working I browse the web or watch online videos and don't go outside unless I need to. I feel like "real" life is slipping further and further away with each wasted day, and yet I can't seem to stop it. And I fear that if I lose this job (it's a bad recession after all) I will slip back into full hiki-mode and never be able to crawl back out.

I remember reading that all hikikomoris are by definition also NEETs (but not vice versa), and yet my life seems to have many attributes of hikikomori (abnormal social isolation, afraid to leave apt, etc). Does anyone have a similar story?