You just pissed your dream away!
It's always great to meet not only another voraraphile but also a fellow cropophile. ^ ^ I hope to be seein' you around, dude!
私にはパニック障害という病気が若い時からありますが、最近、翻然とこれについて理解したのです。
（ただし、私自身についてのことだけです）
私は、
「病気になってしまった」
のではなく、
「私は病気にならなくてはいけなかった」
のです。
だから病気になった。
それだけのことだったんです。
これは、さきほど書いた In Deep の記事の中村天風の言葉でわかったということは正直に書かなければならないですが、「私という人間がパニック障害という”恐怖”を伴う病気にならなくてはいけなかった」という、その理由なのですが・・・。
私がパニック障害になったのは 21歳の時でした。
しかし、実は、私は小さな頃から、それこそ記憶が始まる３歳とかの頃から、
「根源的な恐怖」
を持っていた人間でした。
今でも思い出します。
意味のないことに脅える幼児だったんです。
「根源的」というのは、「理由のない恐怖」です。
つまり、生まれついてから「意味のわからない恐怖を持っている」ということです。
これをスピリチュアル系の方々などに言わせれば、前世とか、因果律とか、いろいろな言葉も出て来るのかもしれないですし、医学ならまた何かの定義があるかもしれないですが、理由や定義はどうでもいいのです。
とにかくそれがある。
根源的な恐怖を持ちながら、子ども時代を過ごし、老年期に入る現在に至っている。
そして、中村天風はこのように述べています。
心の安定を失うことの中で、一番戒むべきものは恐怖観念である。そもこの恐怖なるものこそは、価値なき消極的の考え方で描いているシミだらけな醜い一つの絵のようなものだ。
つまり、「恐怖という概念は問答無用に悪である」ということです。
上の天風の言葉で、ふとさとりました。
「オレの恐怖は外に露出させなければいけなかったんだ」
ということをです。
「じゃないと、悪と対峙できない」
いろいろと理由はあるにしても、自分が神経症やパニック障害になった根本的な理由は、自分の中に「根源的な恐怖がある」からだとは思います。
そして、理由や因果はわからないけれども、その「根源的な恐怖」は生まれた時からずっと私の中にあった。
私がパニック障害などにならず、穏便なメンタルライフを過ごしていたとしましょう。
その場合は、人生として最悪である、
「私は私の中の根源的な恐怖と現実として向きあうことがなかった」
という状態のまま曖昧な人生を送るだけだったと思われます。
パニック障害になったからこそ、その「悪魔」である根源的な恐怖が「実際の姿となって自分の前に現れた」のです。つまり、自分が障害を持ったということは「自分の中の根源的な恐怖と対峙させてくれた」という意味では、大変に重要な出来事だったわけです。
それを私は、二十代の時からベンゾジアゼピン系の薬とお酒で、悪魔の正体を隠し続けていた。
せっかく何者かが悪魔を出現させてくれたのに、その機会を生かさなかった。
でも、今やっとわかります。
根源的な恐怖、すなわち自分が生まれた時から持ち続けた「自分の中の悪魔」と対決できる時が来ているのかもしれないと。
まあ、恐怖は 50年以上続いているわけです。
This has re-ignite my passion on learning how to become a chair.
Alt history fans try not to fall in love with Nazi Germany challenge (IMPOSSIBLE)
In 2007, Kainat Soomro a 13-year-old was kidnapped at gunpoint and gang raped. Her family faced widespread condemnation for refusing to "honor" kill their daughter and faced several attacks which resulted in the death of her brother. Her rapists were all acquitted and she was put under trial for premarital sex which is a crime under Islamic law.
Construction materials: Asbestos, Vinyl Siding
The supply chain wants to be the sole supplier of puss. To a population mindfucked by milf-porn , titillated by cuck-fantasies, muzzled with masks, addled with vaxx.
Apparently it works on soy-cucks like zuck.
It's one thing to manufacture data for consent, and extrapolate to fantasyland, another to actually see the world with wide-eyed wonder.
This is pathetic roasted in irony skillet.
嫌韓発言が多い私ですが、毎日韓国製スマホ使ってます(-_-)。
I high school I knew a guy who wanted to fuck the chicken from FNAF. He tried to get us to pitch in money so he could buy a 3D printer and print the chicken to fuck it. Last I heard he was animating zelda porn.
since females are the sex that gives birth and males are the sex that kills, are ftms the master race for possessing the dual powers of both taking and creating life? (ignoring the being manlets in this analysis)
生词：吸屌好手
笑死
I once had spicy pizza with Gazza and my lips were on fire and he wasn't fazed in the slightest, what a legend.
basically trannies are like furries except instead of animals it's women
I disagree that the only use case is speculation. There's also money laundering.
Sky Sports: "Apologies for the bad language there, we're so sorry about that"
Dutch TV: "HAHAHAHAH"
In January 2017, U.K. sports broadcaster Sky Sports inadvertently reported that Aberdeen had signed a Turkish footballer called "Yerdas Selzavon" (phonetically "your da (father) sells Avon", a reference to the direct-selling cosmetics company) after falling for a gag name on a fake Twitter account.
A lot of the big black cocks posted around are from gay men if you actually reverse search so yeah I dont think they're interested in taking your girl
>>318 Hehe, busted!
ooh I had so much salt and now my head hurts ohhh can you suck me so good you rip the kidney stones out and tear my urethra like a Chinese bitch's pussy giving birth to her (to be) corn fed 13lb hapa baby
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the new timeline for Megalovania is now
2008- Composed for the Earthbound Halloween Hack
2011- Used in Homestuck
2015- Used in Undertale
2019- Used in Super Smash Bros Ultimate
2020- Megalovania is played in a live orchestra
2021- Megalovania is in the Pope's General Audience
For example, our current understanding of physics has yet to explain why yo mama so fat
Based and pinkpilled. Gensokyo is for women only.
I rode an elephant once and it took a shit while I was riding it and I thought the pressure of my weight on it made it do that so I felt fat and starved myself for two days.
LMFAO. Thanks, I'll swipe some reserve notes through my ass crack and send them into Jerome promptly.
Nobunaga actually committed seppuku at Honnoji temple because Akechi Mitsuhide opened a time portal and showed him all the genderbent anime versions of him.
One of the is impersonating my cat. Another is pretending to be the fence behind my house.
All physicians will be required to perform a certain number of abortions per year except those with a religious objection, who will have to perform twice that number.
Girls from the age of five to women aged eighty have been assaulted and sexually mutilated. Others were raped and their families forced to watch. By 2008 the United Nations (UN) had estimated that up to 200,000 females had suffered from some form of sexual violence. The brutality of the rapes have caused long-term health, social, familial, and psychological problems. There have been reports of infants aged one being raped, as well as women in their nineties.
Human Rights Watch described the extraordinary brutality of the DRC rapes – girls as young as five and women as old as eighty were reportedly shot in the vagina or mutilated with knives and razor blades
Well...uhh...the residue from the farts leaves bacteria that causes irritation on the skin thus causing it to itch. ...
So when a girl scratches her butt, you know she either doesn't wipe too well or she has recently farted....
Just random information....
I haven’t finished it because it was too depressing, but the only implausible bit was that the American public would never tolerate that sort of behavior from a female president.
Me, neither; and BECAUSE Amethyst is my FAVORITE Character; and Pizza Steve was the UG Character I DESPISED The Most; It was EXTREMELY Cathartic and VERY Satisfying to see Pizza Steve end up being eaten by Amethyst!!
LEARN JAPANESE IN 5 MINUTES
Say the words out loud.
1) That's not right..........................Sum Ting Wong
2) Are you harboring a fugitive? ........Hu Yu Hai Ding
3) See me ASAP............................Kum Hia Nao
4) Stupid Man.............................. Dum Fuk
5) Small Horse..............................Tai Ni Po Ni
6) Did you go to the Beach?..............Wai Yu So Tan
7) I bumped into a coffee table..........Ai Bang Mai Fa Kin Ni
8) I think you need a face lift............Chin Tu Fat
9) It's very dark in here...................WaoSo Dim
10) I thought you were on a diet........Wai Yu Mun Ching
11) This is a tow away zone.............,No Pah King
12) Our meeting is next week............Wai Yu Kum Nao
13) Staying out of sight...................Lei Ying Lo
14) He's cleaning his automobile.........Wa Shing Ka
15) Your body odor is offensive.........Yu Stin Ki Pu
16) Great...................................Fa Kin Su Pah
>>336 but this is chinese?
one downside to basing most of your cultural education on webcomis is not knowing whether ventriloquism dolls are, in fact, an extremely "white" thing
touhou is so fun and cute, i wish women were real
I came here after receiving a 12 hour suspension for saying that if it was in person I would soundly thrash them. It is addicting because no matter what argument you present they just insult you and form a mob around you to call you all kinds of mean things. They all act like the same entity. It is like an amorphous blob of matter surrounding you and hurling out "you're not an expert". They all use the crying laugh face emoji. They all have weird codes in their descriptions/names like he/her with random assortments of colors and shapes. I believe that Twitter is creating a new form of human cognition.-
Is the joke that the coworker is being cucked by her golden retriever
shoe over the rainbow
The illustrations on the banknotes show generic examples of architectural styles such as renaissance and baroque rather than real bridges from a particular member state, which could have aroused envy among other countries. "The European Bank didn't want to use real bridges so I thought it would be funny to claim the bridges and make them real," Stam told Dezeen.
Network Engineer here. For most home internet providers if your modem is offline for some time they will give your IP to someone else and give you a new one when you get back.
For business however, your IP is static and does not change.
Also the time your modem has to be down for varies, some providers wait just 30 minutes, others a week.
—some tard commenting on a YouTube video: http://archive.today/2022.01.12-230808/https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&v=zC1vlLMoc0s - DarkViperAU upload
How come western vtubers and VAs like nyanners are not considered cultural appropiation?
no I have Pretentious Installation Art Aversion Syndrome (PIAAS, colloquially known as "Based Disease"), please respect my diagnosis, it makes it very difficult to navigate the art world
>>345
The first (and best) vtuber was Max Headroom, a filthy gaijin in all regards, so it's the other way around
Vader, almost a demi-god when it comes to Raw Killing Power and endless swordsmanship skill, gets his hand whacked off by a goober who just picked up a lightsaber a couple years earlier.
We did that at school (learn the poem, not get shagged by a swan)
Knoedie 1 year ago
What a sick perverted video. That is no way to treat a lady.
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Pissinmyasshole 3 weeks ago
There are plenty of us ladies who want to be treated this way.
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Since NiggerCoins could not be reliably traded without double-spending, a system was introduced which allowed double-spending. This caused the value of the coins to contantly decrease, which was also an effective way to combat the issue of there being no fixed supply. This also removed the need for a blockchain, and avoided any possibility of a 51% attack, which quickly lead to the contruction of NGR as we know it today (NGRv2).
A key difference is that in The Expanse we actually see Epstein kill himself
I’m just not sure we should be letting tourists from terrorist havens like England into the country.
One time this happened to me except the airbnb guy stole my identity to get back at me and forged some paperwork and put my grandma in a home even though my grandma easily has at least 2 good years left in her