I cannot function properly without love. It is very important for me to be able to do what is right without love. I consider this to be THE badge of strength and courage. However, this test is incredibly horrible as it quickly puts me into what I would can only describe as a nightmare. What sets me apart from others is that I choose not to except love whenever it arises. I decline all friendships and relationships that come about daily. I'm not angry about it, I refrain with a smile. But after time, such actions cut like a knife. People see the despair in my eyes. People make hateful comments about life around me, hoping that I might nod in agreement. I make those with anger, angrier. I intensify negativity. Yet I still believe that one must be able to carry out his intentions regardless. Essentially I claim that I can:
eat properly
exercise properly
work properly
study properly

without any form of entertainment such as TV, internet(fail), music, or masturbation, or drugs, or alcohol, or as mentioned previously love.
but im failing hard without love, which is why i am here.

Being proper = utter despair... (common sense)