You are obviously just here for attention. You already know the solution, as you took care to inb4 it.

Kill yourself, emo. You won't make any friends in college. If you succeed at art you will barely scrape out a living, and if you fail, you fail HARD. Basically, kill yourself or plan on getting pissed on in a homeless shelter and left to die alone. At least if you kill yourself nao, you will die knowing you amused Anonymous. You will have accomplished SOMETHING.