Well just a short insight... :
Since I was 7 I wished for something, a person who was like me to exist since I felt all 'alone' in this world, and when I turned 14 I wished for it when I blew out my first cake with candles. (there is more to it, I don't really feel like typing it all here since then I would spend 1 hour typing it)
Atm I'm 15, and I don't belive in 'feelings' that effects a human organ ... rather that I didn't learn too many feelings by living with a brother for alot of years
I never liked anyone or even felt the slightest of wanting to meet this and that person as someone I felt close to (not enough as I see my brother)
Well ofc I know how it is to have friends, though I've never experienced how it is to be in-love I think. Think I've never seen anyone in that way since I waited for 'that' person.
Now... I finaly meet someone who is too identical too me and that person is just as my wish ( I wished for 14 things for that person, 1 for every year that I never made a wish, and I had 7 years after that when I was 7 when I wanted that wish, so the wish had 7 'greater ones' and 7 'less but great' ones )
That person already filled up my 14 wishes... weirdly enough I wasn't the one who could make the first 'move' to say what stuffs I liked... turnes out that she said it first and she's like a clone of me in every aspect.
Now I think to myself "Am I a lesbian?" ... Everytime I think of this person I feel warm inside my chest, and my hands/arms are still cold and such...
Though I like hugging pillows, when I hugged my pillow and thought of her my heart beats like crazy. And weirdly enough... we became best friends on the first day we met and... She's the only friend I've ever missed so much, so much infact that I miss her more than my brother when he is away.
Though she's a lesbian, turns out she already likes me wich makes me blush and blushing feels weird... We're both gamers so everytime she jumps infront of me to take the hit from a 'mob' it feels rather weird in a way.
When I just TALK to her my tummy starts to tingle... when I think of her when we talk my tummy tingles...
Even now I miss her and she somehow makes me smile when she isn't even here. Is this how it is to be inlove?... I'm not really sure but when I'm totaly sure about it I'm gonna go and tell her
But that's only when I'm totaly sure that I'm inlove... because if I am, then she's the first one to make me feel like this.
<- //confused girl