Hello all.

A short background so you know where I'm coming from. I liked this girl in high school; it turned out she wasn't into guys. I desperately tried pursuing her in spite of the fact, to no avail. It caused me a great deal of pain just knowing that me being with her was futile. My psyche was changed; I'm more irritable now, and now and then I'll fall into bouts of depression. She doesn't know this.

Ever since, I've started to notice all around me, less and less hetero couples. And I came to thinking-

Do us men fail it now? Is it not exciting anymore to be with a guy if you're a girl? Is it because (as another girl told me) we're pigs? When you look at the male and female physiognomies, I'd be lying if I said the female body wasn't more attractive. Is it because in terms of clothing, guys will usually wear just a tshirt and jeans/uniform while girls have the freedom of wearing more flamboyant apparel, making them more attractive? Is it more than that?

I've been thinking about this for a long time. I reasoned it out, and concluded that I lost that girl because men mistreated her in life (there are various instances I know, but won't say), to the point where she grew to reject males completely in terms of having a relationship. Do us men fail at treating women properly?

It's 2 AM. Am I full of crap? Or am I even making sense? Please tell me what you think.