>>21
Yeah, that's me. Good powers of deduction. Unfortunately, I'm only 17, and I imagine my high school romance has little bearing on your situation.

Changing your mindset is a slow and gradual process, but I don't think it's necessary that you complete it before trying anything. You see, after stupidly stammering out "I like you" over MSN, I had a lot of growing to do; I still had to bring myself to ask her out. And even after that, I was pretty awkward with her. But if she loves you back, she'll be willing to accept you the way you are, with all your problems.