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Sounds like limerence to me. I just learned about it a few days ago, actually, and I feel like I can ascribe all of my feelings of unrequited love to that one emotion.

I have a similar problem. I'm deeply in love with a man, but he's a total asshole, and I'm very shy. If I say anything to him regarding my emotions, he laughs at me, and it gets harder to talk to him about them again. I realize it's idiotic to be so attached to him, mentally, but emotionally it's very hard to pull myself away from him. I wish I had the strength to do what you did - but, then again, he's my good friend. I'm scared of feeling alone.

Good luck, whatever happens to you.