What the fuck.
I still have fantasies of her - her changing her mind, us becoming a couple. I know it's never going to happen, it's stupid, it's wrong, it's slowly destroying me. But I can't stop myself, and it doesn't look like it will just go away if I don't do anything.
It's as if my mind didn't recognize the truth. My brain is so screwed up...argh!
If you have any experience with that, please help. Sorry for this becoming so blog-ish, I wanted say it somewhere.