it's interesting to hear how guys think. i have some issues with my confidence, and so i'm always looking to the people next to me and comparing them with me. now of course there are always people who are more beautiful or smarter than me, and so it just bums me out like shit.

and then when i am thinking about my crush, sometimes i just feel so out of his league because he just seems to be so funny and has the total package. i know it's just my low self-esteem that is giving me doubts, because i do look okay, but still, it's really hard to give yourself confidence when all you can think about is "why would he pick me, when there are so many gorgeous girls or smart girls out there? what do i have that no one has?"