hey, i'm back...
I broke up with her. I feel like the worst person in the world right now, i never thought breaking up with her would feel like this. i expected a more satisfied feeling. but... I dont know. I mean, I'm happy that i'm not with her anymore. but the way she reacted. and shit that happend... she wanted to try work things out but i got annoied because i just want a clean break, so i started yelling. I knew she was sick, but i yelled anyways. i guess halfway through my rant she threw up, and she couldnt get to the toilet because she broke her foot a while back. so then later i hear her mom come in and start screaming at her for throwing up on the carpet (gross i know), and she's just asking her mom to listen to her, she obviously just wanted a hug or something but her mom kept screaming... I heard it all, how she thinks that she is a dissapointment/burden on the family finacially, how she needs to stop hiding behind all this "oh, woe is me" shit, and how she just needs to "suck it up! stop being such a little baby bitch!!!" those were the exact words of her mom. I just never knew the break up would go like this