I'll never love (8)

6 Name: Secret Admirer : 2009-11-07 14:14 ID:EweR/Q5A

Heh, you romantics just show complete apathy to someone who's never going to enjoy your little game of love, but you cry rivers for your average teenagers lovestory...

I'll try to explain.

For me, sex and love are two different things. I think most of you will agree to this: sex has to do with survival, it's an instict living organisms have, deep down it's all explained by biology. Love is unique to humans, it's the result of our high-level intelligence (don't try to counter me with some PETA link claiming chimps are able to love too, you know what I mean).

I can make love to anything because I've stopped listening to my biological insticts; pleasure has taken over. Basically, this is my argument: if I enjoy it, why not? What's the difference between a blowjob from a man and a woman? Mouths look the same to me, and feel the same. With the same argument, I see sex with anything, living or not, possible to enjoy.

Continuing I think you'll all agree to this as well: you might be in love, or not. That means there's two states, in love, not in love. In my opinion love can take many forms and most humans are in love for most of their lives: they love their parents, they love themselves, they love material things they own, they love others, et cetera. It's not the same love if you love your woman and your mother, but it's love nonetheless. Me - I don't love anything. After I got over some major depression in my life I can be functional as a human, but I can't care for anything anymore.

Ironic as it is I've had my share of relationships as well; never succeded to get a woman to like me. You know the story: they like to be in bed with me, but they don't want to spend time with me. They don't like the things I've got to say to them, they don't like the things I've got in my mind, they don't care about my life or who I really am. I don't mind it, it has been fun, but it did make me wonder whether anyone on this planet ever thinks for anything but himself/herself.

I'm not old, but I feel old, I look at kids playing and I know I'd do the worst things just to get back to that age and peace of mind, and feel like I'm in love again. I feel like a truck driver who knows he's got hundreds of miles ahead, with zero surprises on the road. No excitement, just a perfect straight line to nothingness. The same truck driver who as a kid always loved driving.

I bet you won't even bother reading this far.

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