let's suppose i do stop being self-centered, as i did before many times. things always get worse for me. i stop caring only about myself, and people i know (not my close friends) think it's great. But i care about the whole world, i feel miserable and i feel like I'm nearly hopeless, and there's nothing i can do. Yeah, it's a burden that weights tons and sometimes i need to feel it but ... Imagine you can feel all the people in the world, it's painful yet beautiful and joyful.
being self-centered doesn't mean I'm arrogant you know, it means that i trust myself, and that i care about myself because i believe in mankind. and i believe that everyone is capable of something big, so each one of us should actually care more about themselves and become stronger, smarter, whatever they want, it's possible with dedication. if you truly put your mind and heart into it. thinking desperately about other people and how to make the world better is what i think. expect i think it through me, and not through others....
Because... Feelings are a chemical reaction to the surrounding world, by interperting them you become aware and conscious... of the world you live in, some people are sensitive to them some aren't.
but yeah, I've been having a rough time deciding where to direct my feelings and so my melancholy arose, and i'm getting tired of being like this so i tried here to see if someone could say anything about this. I am growing tired of feeling like I'm wasting time.
after seeing these two posts it made me think that... who knows me better than myself ? it's no point asking you guys, but thank you, specially to >>4 for the self-centered question, made me realize i was trying too hard to make other people like me, I've decided not to run against the flow and let things happen naturally. I trust I'll make the right decision.