Personal Issues @4-ch

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1: Witch stole my penis (3) 2: My story. Pls read it.. (13) 3: When I was a teenager, I molested someone... (17) 4: my life (13) 5: Hikikomoris/Hikikomori wannabes: How do you make money for a living? (213) 6: Sean Kinnier Johnstown, New York (3) 7: Tell me about your NEET life (6) 8: The Sean Kinnier Nigger hating fan club (3) 9: CP... (13) 10: My story (7) 11: I have really serious problem with my life.please help (3) 12: (How to get over) Guilt from losing my Virginity? (10) 13: Please teach me English (7) 14: Azazel has come to me in dreams (10) 15: Schizoid Jobs (9) 16: Endless despair (10) 17: WAIFUCHAN.ORG IS YOUR FRIEND C: (2) 18: Trying to become friends with neighbors (1) 19: penis borg (1) 20: ugly black monster in my porn (2) 21: gaynal sex (1) 22: my life (3) 23: A friend Died Today (9) 24: Not Social (7) 25: Sean Kinnier Sex Offender (1) 26: Men who raped women and got away with it (6) 27: Ways to Increase My Will? (6) 28: Indian Apts (4) 29: DOMINANT ASIAN WOMEN/submissive white men (13) 30: Please stop my deed which I would do that about revenge porn (7) 31: Sexually molested by older brother. Should I tell to my family? (155) 32: Ever feel you don't belong in this era? (103) 33: lonely (5) 34: how to fail as a neurotypical individual (6) 35: Genuine Loners - Coping with Society (149) 36: My family expects too much from me (8) 37: I think I have an eating disorder... how do I stop myself? (4) 38: Hikikomori: Can you be hiki and still gainfully employed? (15) 39: Quant (3) 40: I'm gay and I'm scared. (32)

Witch stole my penis (3)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-09-20 23:49 ID:M1W+O8Hz

A witch stole my penis what do I do? I don't think they will let me burn her on a stake.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-07 15:07 ID:M1W+O8Hz

Plz help. Life is empty without penis.

3 Name: fliers2 : 2014-12-10 06:13 ID:nfxcHB3d

this is interesting

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My story. Pls read it.. (13)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 04:26 ID:f3g7vwxb

Okay... I need your help guys...
Well, first of all I am native russian speaker and I live in Moscow...
My youth was kind of complicated...
My mother is a daughter of Soviet ex-kgb agent and my father was lecturer at the University... He was 49 when I was born...(1986)
So... i spend my early years in a horrible commieblock in Moscow I was alone with my father and after some time he was diagnosed with cancer...
I went to a typical soviet kindergarden with horrible rude nannies and I felt kinda strange being there because I was really really shy kid... So I went to horrible soviet school in 1993 and I was alone there because I am from KGB...
My grades were horrible... Then we moved to some shitty boring Moscow neighborhood (butovo) and I was horrible bullied there by angry russian kids..
I got horrible grades for any subjects expect math and english(as you can see it from my message) and drop-out when I was 14... Then I went to technical school but eventually drop-outed... My hobbies were reading, videogames, and math because I wanted to enroll to Moscow uni... so I managed to finish high school and got enrolled into МЭИ... i drop out too... Then I went fully hikkikomori mode for one year and yeah... i got into history department.. i can speak almost fluent english and also japanese...
So.. now I am totally unemployed and what shocked

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 04:53 ID:f3g7vwxb

Pps...
Sweden doesnt recognize IQ test and I kind of agree with it.. Because I am 28 and ofc NOW i cant solve all these hard math problems because I simply forgot it... Maybe it is the same for IQ???? I can read Dickens in English and I can read Plato (no, really I CAN read Plato) but according to this stupid IQ test I am degenerate...
I got degree in Asian Studies (I can read japanese almost fluently) and maybe I am somewhat lost touch with all these abstract problems..

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:05 ID:f3g7vwxb

Айкю тест - полная полная хуйня
Я встал спросони и набрал 59 (олигофорен) потом немного натренировался и уже получил 90, американский тест вообще показал 118

Дайте мне двести тестов и я покажу результат в 140...
Хуйня а не тест

Я блять кафку на немецком читаю а тут мне тест показывет 53...
Решил двести тестов за ночь - результат уже 130..
Говно и профанация

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:05 ID:f3g7vwxb

ПОЗОР СОЗДАТЕЛЮ АЙКЬЮ ТЕСТА

7 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:21 ID:f3g7vwxb

Тест айзенека - вообще бред шизофреника...

аалтерк
кожал
дмончеа
шкаач Решите анаграммы и исключите лишнее слово.

Что это за филфак??? Какой идиот это придумал?

8 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:34 ID:f3g7vwxb

Тест айзенка - бред

Ну какая здесь может быть логика???

багор (роса) тесак
гараж (....) табак Вставьте пропущенное слово.

Я думал два часа????

Господи что это за бред?? По результату этого теста я просто олигофорен которому только в дурке место...
Я блять думал ровно два часа над этим!!!
Это что блять такое??? Задача для малолетних абитуриентов псих фака???

ХВАТИТ

9 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:35 ID:f3g7vwxb

ниавд
сеотт
слот
лексор Решите анаграммы и исключите лишнее слово.

Знаете что самое смешное??? Они сделали только восемь вариантов этого бреда

Это наверно какая то секретная логика психиаторов

10 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:37 ID:f3g7vwxb

книга(аист)салат
порог(....)омлет Вставьте пропущенное слово.

11 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:40 ID:f3g7vwxb

>>8

Идиот правильный ответ ЖАБА
ТЫ УМСТВЕННО ОТСТАЛЫЙ КОТОРОГО НУЖНО СРОЧНО ЛЕЧИТЬ

12 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 06:42 ID:f3g7vwxb

>>11

БЛЯТЬ НУ СОВСЕМ ЕБАНУТЫЕ
ЭТО ЛИШЬ ТЕСТ НА ВНИМАНИЕ

багОР теСАк = ОР СА = РОСА

ХИТРО И ОЧЕНЬ КОВАРНО
Я РЕШАЮ ДИОФАНТОВЫЕ УРАВНЕНИЯ ДЛЯ МАТШКОЛЬНИКА НО ПО ТЕСТУ АЙЗЕНКА Я ДЕГЕНЕРАТ

13 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-04 17:28 ID:0B68X0fm

penis

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When I was a teenager, I molested someone... (17)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2009-04-15 00:09 ID:MakfLLq1

When I was 14, I molested my sister. She was was almost four the first time and the second time was just after she turned four. The first time, I actually pulled her pants down and touched her bottom, but the second time was just me taking my time helping her in the restroom. Neither time did I ask her to touch me or even show her my penis.

I was recently recovering from a long amount of physical and emotional abuse from my father, and had previously been molested twice in my youth. I was also suffering from some fairly serious mental problems. I say this not to excuse my actions, but to provide more of an explanation of what was going on then.

As time went on and I have returned to a more normal mental state, I look back upon what I have done in horror and guilt. I don't really know what effects this may have had on my sister (she is still fairly young) but I don't really look back on my molestations negatively. I still feel guilty, though.

However, a larger emotion that I am now feeling is fear. What if she remembers? What if she does not? I certainly remember being that age, but I developed rather quickly. Her linguistic skills have always been behind. What if she remembers and eventually tells someone and my life is ruined? What if.... etc?

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8 Name: you must die : 2012-05-07 01:56 ID:BfeoZ+rO

im sorry that wus meen

9 Name: Cant say : 2012-05-26 03:25 ID:RnFZmwW3

Im scared to death. I was molested when i was 13, and when i was 14 i molestedmy neice and nephew... Im 17 niw, and when i look back im horrified i wouldnt ever hurt them now, id die for them. I never meant any harm, i was just curious... i feel like killing myself now!! Ive heard that its common for children who have been molested to 'experiment' with other children...im going to kill myself. I love these kids, and i feel like a monster. Should i tell someone?!

10 Name: anon : 2012-06-05 14:58 ID:xGsu/10P

I am a licensed mental health counselor. I suggest that you make an appointment to get into therapy as soon as you can. You owe it to yourself to talk with a professional about this and to sort it out. I assume that you are carrying some uncertainty, guilt, shame and other feelings about what happened with your sister. If you don't deal with feelings with a trained professional you risk being vulnerable emotionally in a number of ways. I wish you luck and I hope you take my advice.

11 Name: anon : 2012-06-05 15:12 ID:xGsu/10P

Dear Can't say,
I am a licensed mental health counselor. I suggest that you make an appointment to get into therapy as soon as you can. You owe it to yourself to talk with a professional about this and to sort it out. I assume that you are carrying some uncertainty, guilt, shame and other feelings about what happened with other kids and about what happened to you. If you don't deal with feelings with a trained professional you risk being vulnerable emotionally in a number of ways and this is no way to live. This experience does not define you but you need a safe place to sort it out and not on a public chat. It's always best to face difficult things in one's life than to keep it a secret and run away from it because we can never run away from something like this. Suicide is a permenant solution to a temporary problem and would be a very poor attempt at solving this one. You can solve this by getting into therapy, talking it out, dealing with your feelings differently and taking responsibility for your actions. You can do it! I wish you luck and I hope you take my advice and get the professional support that you need to face this issue and heal.

12 Name: jjhg987 : 2012-12-07 17:42 ID:KLEA1NIs

Hi I'm 20 male about to be 21 and i know exactly how you feel. when i was 11 or 12 i molested my best friends little sister. Its been fucking me fucking my whole life I regret it everyday. And just like you I'm scared shes going to getting to around that age where she right remember and shes going to tell someone. i really would like to do the right thing and talks things out or what ever, because i truly do regret it but also if she doesn't remember and i say something then everyone will trip. I don't know what to do and everyday i live in fear shes going to tell her brother, my childhood best friend, who used to live with me, and hes going to kick my ass.

13 Name: Anonymous : 2012-12-13 11:43 ID:w7wN/dO4

The tire printer which LAC Corporation in Japan developed is the machine of too poor quality. LAC Corporation sold this sidewall printer to the comapany in U.S.A., but this machine was goods of too poor. The printed tire's color was changed and became black from white in one week. You must never purchase this sidewall printer made in LAC Corporation. The salesman of LAC Corporation says only good things. In the global community, LAC Coporation in Japan is the maker which there must not be in the tire industry.
http://www.laccorp.com/LAC-International/LAC-SidewallPrinter_set.html

14 Name: Turrentcase : 2013-02-20 23:16 ID:aOnuaCUZ

I to did the same thing and i feel alot of guilt, but i got my forgiveness from my sister, God, and Jesus. I was confused at the time, it's alright! We need to move along, more people than you know do this. Now that 2 years have passed since i did this (age of 15...17 now) i'm very protective of my sister around my father.

15 Name: Turrentcase : 2013-02-20 23:17 ID:aOnuaCUZ

I to did the same thing and i feel alot of guilt, but i got my forgiveness from my sister, God, and Jesus. I was confused at the time, it's alright! We need to move along, more people than you know do this. Now that 2 years have passed since i did this (age of 15...17 now) i'm very protective of my sister around my father.

16 Name: anonymous : 2014-11-04 14:02 ID:yYnhebPz

Im 15 and when i was twelve i touched my lil cousin boy and girl and when i see them i wanna kill them it hurts me everyday to know what i did i wish i could take it back i want help but i don't want jail time i didn't mean it i don't know why i did that please i beg for forgiveness im dying every day regreting w
The horrible thing i done im a mpnstrr i should be dead i need to die

17 Name: Anonymous : 2014-11-04 22:51 ID:PDonn52n

fag

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my life (13)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 22:42 ID:P7RBvgkT

(I fucked the first thread, someone please delete that.)
I've had no real memories of happiness, as far as I can recall. My first memory was of my mother dragging me in pyjamas, barefoot, across the city to show me the place where my father was having sex with his lover. I recall my mother telling e and my little sister to call dad to her new lover of the week after they divorced. I remember my mother teaching me to distrust everyone else but herself. I remember learning too well; I learned to distrust everybody, including my mother and my little sister.
I was bullied until I was 14. I would end crying mos of the time. My mother would ask me why I was crying, then she would hit me for not telling her why, and then again for not stop crying.
My father tried to choke us out of her by sending her a little money as possible. We had to move over twenty times because we were not able to pay the rent.
I eventually stopped crying for a while.
Still, my sister would try to find everything she could about me, so she could tell my mother, and gain a little recognition on her eyes. She was starving for affection, and if that included sacrificing her brother for it, so be it.
Eventually my mother married the first man stupid enough to fall for her. They had a child, ad he grew to become a psycho. He has tried to poison me twice.
I think I was almost happy when I had my first girlfriend. We were fourteen, and to her was the only one who would listen. To me, she was the only one who I could trust, and love. When I ound out she was bulimic, it became a hell for me, since I was afraid to lose her everyday.

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4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-05 14:42 ID:F+ZdQ69+

I did as well.

I wonder how many people have had a painful life like yours, because so many people have existed in the past already. I think that most of their personal worries and pain is no longer remembered by anyone. Even something like WWII is already mostly remembered through entertainment: movies, books and games, rather than through the memories of those who suffered and are still able to tell us about it. Eventually the universe will end and everything will be forgotten, like it never even happened.

I hope you are able to forget now and still have some happy moments.

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-22 07:43 ID:7Z8J3KWa

friend youre not alone i'm living something similar but i'm only 26

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-27 05:03 ID:JFCaeRgD

It is hard to "forget memories" (unless you become depersonalized) only learn to live with them and forgive those who harmed you

7 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-29 23:38 ID:Eo//Mawp

Op here.
It only gets worse. I'm fucked up.

8 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-30 12:28 ID:dw8vgw6z

>>7
You'll feel better if you share details, people here will read what you write

9 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-31 23:02 ID:wZs9nB4e

Actually, nothing improves. It would be futile.

10 Name: Anonymous : 2014-06-06 09:34 ID:Ix3V4vUn

Don't feel like that. Life is a gift. I'm depressed and then I think:
I have two legs. I can walk wherever I want to. I will walk.

11 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-29 23:51 ID:oGJPkZFI

My heart still beats, I hate it.

12 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-30 01:08 ID:t4wjHZl6

fag

13 Name: Anonymous : 2014-11-01 16:42 ID:S07FRigB

Start running. Run like hell. Run until you cannot run anymore. It'll numb the pain.

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Hikikomoris/Hikikomori wannabes: How do you make money for a living? (213)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2006-10-22 03:49 ID:Heaven

I was going to ask this question to the last poster in the Baby Human topic, but decided I should probably make atopic out of it.

Well, how do you survive? Live with your parents, work off the internet, live with other relatives, supported by girlfriend/friends, still go to school, still go to work, inheritage, participate in money farming?

Post your source of income here, along with your age, if you feel like it.

As for me: Age 21. I live with my parents, but most of my income comes from my community college (still trying to get through it). The rest comes from different things I've done online, like checks from those free Ipod sites and ads on sites I've ran.

204 Name: Anonymous : 2012-12-04 06:12 ID:w7hoUOgC

>>202
Second. Where do I sign up?

205 Name: Anonymous : 2012-12-07 07:31 ID:1i9sKuu8

>>202
Finland?

206 Name: Anonymous : 2012-12-09 19:20 ID:2+cnWcQI

Live alone, get money from parents. Theyre hate me, hehe

207 Name: Anonymous : 2013-02-07 02:28 ID:NLqKp7FQ

hikkimotri since 1999 only had 3 odd jobs no college leave with mom. my life is getting owrst by the day and n
my last rope.

208 Name: Anonymous : 2013-03-24 21:34 ID:Heaven

>>207
If I asked you to improve your English, it'd be like someone asking me to buckle down and finish high school math. We're the same, you and me. I just have more pretensions.

209 Name: Anonymous : 2013-10-26 19:08 ID:/EvCFXh6

ssdhdfag

210 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-09 12:08 ID:U/C8Wm5M

I am a hiki with zero prospects and an intense disinterest in engaging reality. I need to make some money. I would try to scam people on kickstarter but I am also a coward! Suggestions welcome.

211 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-09 13:03 ID:SjbfUAS5

I am working as part-time prostitute :D

212 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-10 20:51 ID:gLEyuxJe

>>210

Get on welfare dude

213 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-20 03:46 ID:n436p0p6

fag

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Sean Kinnier Johnstown, New York (3)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-09 16:47 ID:nPXXnIj1

Do the people living in the Johnstown, New York. Know that Sean Kinnier hates Blacks and calls them "Niggers" and has a thing for raping Mexicans and calling them Spics and Beaners.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-15 03:14 ID:mT7I8GwT

fag

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-15 23:31 ID:/dL32Nkb

He sounds like a cool guy.

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Tell me about your NEET life (6)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-04 11:13 ID:bK7JockM

let me indulge in your problems, im here to listen and i want to help you guys out, unfortunately not directly, but with a project.

surveymonkey.com/s/FHZ7FMY

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 14:05 ID:UdrJShEN

Working is for losers

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-09 10:50 ID:TuOphJTt

働いたら負けかなと思ってる

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-13 18:15 ID:nJEZfuMA

fag

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-13 21:24 ID:4dtZyTLV

History is my main hobby

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-14 10:26 ID:Heaven

I study Burmese

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The Sean Kinnier Nigger hating fan club (3)

1 Name: SKFC : 2014-06-19 13:47 ID:Heaven

All our welcome to the Sean Kinnier Nigger hating fan club

https://archive.today/KWWH4

Rules:

  1. No Blacks
  2. No Jews
  3. No Japs
  4. No Gays
  5. No Spics
  6. No Redcreams and 4ct

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-06-19 17:23 ID:awCczSi5

but you are on 4ch!

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-13 21:21 ID:oWzeeJYa

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CP... (13)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2011-02-26 18:08 ID:1VxiI15t

I would like to see CP
of course I know its wrong, and Im a satisfied with 12chan and onlyhotchan
But are there any other possible pedophiles here?
Most "Pedos" on the net are trolls

I would like if at least little girl nudity would be legal

4 Name: Anonymous : 2011-02-28 23:17 ID:Heaven

We all have our "fantasies". But it's pure danger when someone carries out their fantasies. Fantasies are personal and not dangerous. But when you attempt to carry them out, it's pure criminal activity. I have no remorse for these pedophiles. I know you may be fucked up in the head, but soliciting sex from a minor and driving to the residence is a crime in and of itself, despite never engaging in illegal activity. These people see signs, but pursue. These are dangers. Lock them up.

This is why nobody has empathy for pedophiles

5 Name: Anonymous : 2011-04-01 15:40 ID:qcVL+Xhu

@ the person above me. locking up pedophiles won't do shit so hows about you shut up and stop making things worse. when you release a pedophile from prison he'll either stop molesting out of fear of getting jailed again or he'll keep on doing it because his desires were strong enough to where he didn't care what the consequences were to molestation.

the point i'm trying to get across is show some damn sympathy, these people need to seek help and rehabilitation, not jailtime, because that won't solve anything

6 Name: anon : 2011-04-26 18:23 ID:WLnZoc2K

my theory is that any pedo should be dealt with by any adult who has children because theyd kill you. im fucking disgusted to see this thread. any kind of child porn is wrong i dont care if thats what gets you off. my advice is kill yourself. go to your kitchen, get a knife and cut your wrists or take some pills you fucking dirty evil freaks. youd be doing parents and children a favour. they need to bring the death penalty in for dirty losers like you.

go die pedos xxx no ammount of excuses from you will change how i feel because your not right in the head :)

7 Name: Anonymous : 2011-04-27 22:42 ID:Heaven

>>6

You make a comment about someone committing suicide and end it with a emoticon

You definitely sound like a mature person

8 Name: Anonymous : 2011-04-28 19:56 ID:Heaven

>>6

Newfag detected

9 Name: Anonymous : 2011-07-16 23:52 ID:bu8AlViW

all pedos WILL Die, ...someday >>6 just like they have for THOUSANDS of YEARS!

You do not know if your children will go off to college and fester an addiction for pedo, or beer, or herione, or mass murder, or gambling, or manipulation, or hacking, or yoga, or bible studies.
But these are YOUR kids, the ones you love, and respect, and protect. These are your kids, with their own mind and freedom of chioce.

Your off-spring will Die ...someday. It's normal.

10 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-04 23:06 ID:e7W/1a3l

gooby plz

11 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-08 06:45 ID:+ABCg0nr

You will end in prison dude

FBI is probably already working on you

12 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-09 11:20 ID:HGPDdQIN

I'm only into 2D kids, but I really like doing things that are illegal but carry little risk. Downloading gives me a rush, but soon the video or image finishes and I open it and the only thing I feel is disappointment. It's not like I find the content morally repugnant or anything, I'm in no position to criticize others for their fetishes, but I guess in the end I'm really just not into 3D.

I remember reading a study that suggested that viewing CP reduced the likelihood of a pedophile targeting an actual child, but I didn't save it and haven't been able to find it again.

13 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-11 20:07 ID:e7W/1a3l

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My story (7)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-10 10:36 ID:GhLfXuYH

I'm 22, I study mathematics. I used to skateboard and drink lots of alcohol in my 13-18s. My parents would always give me money and I would leave the house for 8-10 hours, skateboarding and drinking. I do not remember much from that age. I do remember myself being an exceptional kid earlier than that. Others would always tell me how smart and kind I am. I was also a brat sometimes, bragging about the expensive stuff that I would get from my parents (but I do remember that I did this without malice). I also remember myself having philosophical thoughts. A particular one was that I was wondering about infinite universes hiding inside the atoms. I remember having problems in school (being called hyperactive).

Later, in high school, things would get much worse, and most teachers would consider me the worst of the worst. I would often be a human shield for other students. When something in class went wrong and some student was blamed, if I judged that the teacher was incorrectly blaming him/her, I would do something even more stupid, so that the attention would drift to my case. This naturally caused me to have many enemies in the teachers' circle. My life would be wasted if I hadn't gotten a computer. I started learning programming on my own and I pretty much mastered it. I did this because I wanted to be a hacker. I had deep political convictions back then, and I wanted to push my own agenda by hacking important servers and putting up messages. I did not succeed, but I later lost interest in that. This interest in programming, however, saved me: I learned to study on my own, and when the time came, I managed to get into university and study maths. I was always very good at maths.

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2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-12 11:57 ID:24Z1LfGC

I am glad that you did not become a hacker. Prison is not really a nice place for smart guys. Find a job and make some friends.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-12 23:38 ID:RMaAMEoP

I'm also lonely. youare so young.

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-13 20:03 ID:GhLfXuYH

>>2
thank you

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-11 15:26 ID:fXwpvaVN

You are getting PHD great!! But what is more important is getting proper good paying job! Good luck

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-11 15:35 ID:iv4L4I7h

fag

7 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-11 18:48 ID:4mUw2U8b

I think your story is great, sorry you feel so lonely.

I also think getting a computer saved my life. A lot of my middle school and high school friends drank and did drugs, but early on I was never really tempted to join them because there were so many incredible things I could do with my computer. If I spent my time on the internet, I could make new friends, build websites and learn new things. It always seemed like a much better time investment.

I went through a brief period in high school where I did drugs. My main motivation was loneliness and curiosity. It didn't last long, but around that period I made lot of bad decisions and felt horrible about myself. I even contemplated suicide around that time.

Eventually, I realized I was just in a vicious cycle of bad behavior and knew I wanted to change. Once again, I went back to my computer and started to teach myself things. I learned how to be less shy. I joined some forums dedicated to self-improvement. I changed how I acted in school and started to make more friends IRL. Not long after, I started programming again and started my own business while still in school.

Thanks for sharing your story OP. I'll keep this thread open in a tab and check back periodically if you ever come back and want to chat.

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