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Sexually molested by older brother. Should I tell to my family? (157)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2007-05-02 20:00 ID:F8NYbquD

I’m 28 now but when I was 9 my older brother started touching me while I was sleeping, masturbated me and rub his penis in my ass.

I suddenly changed personality, from an extroverted kid to a very introverted one, always in my room, no friends, almost all my puberty depressed, I tried to never mention his name again, just call him "the other one" (I have another brother) and trying to keep always an eye on my little sister, worry about he will try the same with her.

I don’t know if it was not obvious for my parents the change in personality and my strong reluctance to be in the same place with him, now I know these and other behaviors I had then, are clearly a sign of child sexual abuse, but my parents are catholic (we live in South America) and they had an excellent relation with their families, so, they would never thought in something like this.

My dad change, for him been a good brother is very important and he never understood why I start hating my older brother. Why always when he talked something about him, I did faces, and why I transformed in a crybaby loner.

My mom for the other side interpreted this as a behavior- adolescence issue and start overprotecting me even more. Cause I didn’t have a social life and was very quit she always put me like an example of discipline, academically and at home, and we - my mom and I- formed a strong relationship that all the others- included my dad and sister- feel alienated from it.

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148 Name: Anonymous : 2012-07-11 19:22 ID:qRy5dzHD

>>146
How will getting him into trouble help you? It won't, you can't modify the past. All you're going to do is hurt someone, someone who has issues controlling themselves. It's likely that he's already hurt himself, why throw more onto him over something so small? If it wasn't for society you wouldn't even be emotionally "damaged" by the so called "sexual abuse" that took place in the past.

149 Name: Becky. : 2012-08-10 05:40 ID:PN4qVV2f

I, too, was molested by my older brother. It started when I was 11 years old. He'd of been, 14 years old. It started out as just simple "touching" and "feeling" around my body. Poking around. I just thought to myself that all boys will do it at some point, because their curiousity would get the better of them. Boy, I should've prepared myself for what happened next. Being only 11, I assumed it was a one time thing. I didn't think much of it, then it got much worse. He'd start forcing me into corners, and humping me... O_O
He would try to put his hands down my pants, and in my shirt. He'd say dumbass shit like, "I like the flowers on your shirt," just so he could feel me up. He literally did it ANY chance he got. Meaning, when my parents were turned away. It happened for four years. Up until about two weeks ago, actually. I JUST told my parents what he's been doing. I only told them a fraction of the truth. I told them that he's been touching me, and feeling me. I didn't tell them that he's been putting his mouth on my personal areas, or humping and grinding on me against the wall. I know I need to, soon. They sent him to therapy, which I thought was the stupidest idea ever. What? Show him that it's wrong and case closed? No. His ass should be locked up. Then, they go about their day like nothing happened, and like he's a perfect little angel. At least they don't leave me alone here with him anymore. Thank God. But still, it's hard. I've been wanting to kill myself for quite some time. Hopefully, I'll seek the right help for that. Time to go tell my parents the truth. Good luck to you. I hope you make it out there. :)

150 Name: Anonymous : 2012-08-14 07:36 ID:goaNAGTm

I accidentally touched my younger sister's boob once; I hope she's not emotionally scarred.

151 Name: Guilt Ridden Brother : 2012-08-23 06:24 ID:Q+aBPHoh

I'll apologize in advance for the long post, but I am bearing my soul, and sharing this for the first time.

When I was a young, curious, confused teenager (prolly 15 or so, maybe a bit older) I made the mistake of letting my curiosity get the better of me. Twice I felt my younger (by 2 years) sister's vagina in her sleep. I sort of touched around, by the opening and a little bit in the first time, but not the second (like to your first knuckle from completely outside, but she was still a virgin, and I don't think i was doing it right anyway, so i wonder if it was even penetration). I never tried to give her pleasure, to kiss, or to lick, never touched her clit, and I never jerked off or even played with my penis or touched her with it. The second time, she woke up and said "gross". I feigned starting awake from her response and asked what woke her, to which she just went right back to sleep.

Perhaps a year or two prior, we had both been curious about the other sex's body, so we would innocently show each other and do the same with our 2 best friends. Puberty makes kids do silly things. I did notice that she shied away from it first. Actually, we were pretty open with each other about our private parts as children, and didn't really see anything wrong with running around the house naked.

I am 24 now, and I have ever since been filled with guilt and regret over the whole situation. What made it worse was that both times were when we were sharing a bed on vacation. I feel like I have totally failed her and violated her trust - as a big brother, family member, and a friend - and have sullied the sibling bond.

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152 Name: moot!Ep8pui8Vw2 : 2012-08-28 12:18 ID:BAbMqPGf

They're pretty cool.

153 Name: moot!Ep8pui8Vw2 : 2012-08-28 12:19 ID:BAbMqPGf

shit guys, sorry, i thought I was replying to the thread about indians.

154 Name: Britt : 2012-10-19 21:08 ID:7T49H7sB

Mine is also a little long...
My little sister and I were also touched by our older brother. He is about 2 years older, and she is about 2 years younger.

I don't remember how old I was. 8, 11, I'm not sure. But I was young.
It usually happened in the form of a "game." A few times, when my parents were away, he had this game where the first person to make any sound had to take a piece of clothes off. In the end all 3 of us would be naked. I don't know if it happened the first time or not but eventually he touched us and had us touch him.
Being so young and stupid, the game seemed weird but I didn't know how wrong it was.

He also tried to get us to watch porn. I think that's the very first thing that happened. We found old porn in the attic and he turned it on. He would watch stuff on the computer in the living room when it was just us.

One day at a get-together with some of my parents friends, they had kids around our age. A boy my age, a girl my sister's age and another girl who was probably 5. Just to be silly we played 5 minutes of heaven. Everyone pretty much just sat in the dark in a closet for 5 minutes, no one even attempted to touch me any of the times. Kissing only happened when we played Truth or Dare, and that's the most that happened. I was distracted one of the times my brother was in there, but the other kids decided to play a joke and open the closet door early. Everyone says the girl he was with had her pants down. My sister swears to it to this day. The girl he was in there with was the 5 year old girl. I wonder to this day, and feel horrified about it.

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155 Name: anonymous : 2013-12-16 22:54 ID:Bcib2Hi1

You're a piece of shit for telling him he should commit suicide and that he's a fag. What does it make his brother for molested him, I think what.needs to happen is you need to commit suicide for saying that. I had the same thing happen to me, this guys story is close to mine, but people accept my.brother.like he's somebody that's worthy of respect, and look at me like I'm a piece of shit for trying to seek help for the rage and anger I have inside toward him, it crippled me for years, the hypocrisy that people have made me hateful there were times I planner to commit murder, but god saves me right when I need him, every time I need him , and I'm not gay, I encourage the guy who posted this to be strong and be aggressive toward people who challenge you any Christians who tell you you're going to hell I would slap the fuck out of them, especially.if they are Christians who know you're.brother and he's going in o heaven.or treat him like he has a.legitimate chance of going, be strong and don't give up, never give up, at least you can stand before god and tell.him your service for him was that you didn't commit suicide.

156 Name: SomeoneConfused : 2015-07-02 07:08 ID:La6++/uV

Well around th he time I was 4-6 my moms, friends, daughters, brother made me his girlfriend. At that time I was very young and thought of it as a game. I am 11 and almost 12 now and still remember a lot of it. I was really gullible and he'd say to close my eyes, and that he had a "lollipop" for me and told me to stick my hands out. He'd then place his # on my hand and i thought it was gross and would let it drop out of my hands. At that time we visited a lot! There wasn't really anything sexual tho. He'd give me kisses when people weren't around. And we usually hung out a lot. His age was around 10-12 at the time. One day when I was a bit older I got sick of all the kisses and his #. And told him "I don't like it I'm sick of it and that I think it's disgusting" I never said it as a breakup tho. He did stop for sure tho and nothing really happened after. Yet I somewhat feel bad cause ever since then he'd look at me sadly, act as if I'm not there, I haven't even talked to him since then even after all the times I've gotten to be near him. I never talked to him either tho. Of course I didn't know that what I had been doing was bad and thought it was some type of game or like tv where people had gf's and bf's. I've never told anyone about this at all. And I'm not planning to. It was a small thing and not worth telling my family. If I told my friends soon enough it would get all over the school and for the people who knew what a slut was they'd be calling me that for sure. I just thought I should share this with people who don't know me at all. I live in wisconsin if u wanted to know... but I guess that's really all...

157 Name: ConfusedTears : 2015-07-02 07:10 ID:La6++/uV

Well around th he time I was 4-6 my moms, friends, daughters, brother made me his girlfriend. At that time I was very young and thought of it as a game. I am 11 and almost 12 now and still remember a lot of it. I was really gullible and he'd say to close my eyes, and that he had a "lollipop" for me and told me to stick my hands out. He'd then place his # on my hand and i thought it was gross and would let it drop out of my hands. At that time we visited a lot! There wasn't really anything sexual tho. He'd give me kisses when people weren't around. And we usually hung out a lot. His age was around 10-12 at the time. One day when I was a bit older I got sick of all the kisses and his #. And told him "I don't like it I'm sick of it and that I think it's disgusting" I never said it as a breakup tho. He did stop for sure tho and nothing really happened after. Yet I somewhat feel bad cause ever since then he'd look at me sadly, act as if I'm not there, I haven't even talked to him since then even after all the times I've gotten to be near him. I never talked to him either tho. Of course I didn't know that what I had been doing was bad and thought it was some type of game or like tv where people had gf's and bf's. I've never told anyone about this at all. And I'm not planning to. It was a small thing and not worth telling my family. If I told my friends soon enough it would get all over the school and for the people who knew what a slut was they'd be calling me that for sure. I just thought I should share this with people who don't know me at all. I live in wisconsin if u wanted to know... but I guess that's really all...

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Penis veins (1)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-28 02:32 ID:FlgI3ij0

I want more and bigger veins in my penis. How to achieve this?

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Friend thinks they're an sjw (3)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-08 17:57 ID:mc2jKdIP

This is going to be really lame: A while ago I made a small post criticizing sjws. (I think you know what I'm talking about) While I have no problem with LGBTQ people and rights in general and don't tolerate racists. A friend decided to take it upon themselves to take it personally and seems somewhat avoidant with discussing this issue. One of their reasons for avoiding me was that they get stepped on in public for being "who they are".

This seemed unfair as I did not personally address the person, nor did I associate them as an insufferable keyboard warrior. I've been stepped on in public as well back when I used to grow my hair out. But I think the person had been hasty and has suddenly deemed me as one of those people who wronged them and stepped on them in public.

They made some passive aggressive posts for a bit and they apparently can't seem to differentiate between a reasonable person who just happens to stands for genuine "social justice" issues (However you define that) from the sort of people who make attempts at getting offended at everything, not listening to differing viewpoints/criticism, and just mirroring the same sort of bigoted behaviour which they said they are against.

I wasn't sure if I should point this sort of bullshit out to them. I think it's something that they should know. It's been a few weeks. Or should I just dismiss them as a lost cause? I don't expect to be friends with them again. (So maybe there's nothing to lose) It's been bothering me for a while. But it's something that I need to get off my chest since I've been thinking about this a lot. Thanks for your time.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-18 01:29 ID:EUlD/dR2

Explain to them what their behavior looks like to a neutral outside observer. They'll either hate you and get angry, or they'll get it and change their ways.

Ultimately all humans have an ego problem, and unless someone else points out our errors (whatever those may be), it's difficult to change.

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lost fain in humans (8)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-23 15:01 ID:nuYSVlxP

I'm 25 years old living in taiwan at the moment, Over the years i've experienced shitloads of things. When i was 16 i went through major depression till i was 18, people at school often mocked me either for my fat (i was pretty chubby back then) or just cos i was too nice, during those two years i've attempted suicide twice but failed. A Old close/best friend of mine saved me back then and inspired me to keep living and work hard. I've met girls who tried to take advantage of me because i was being too nice, i end up getting hurt my self many times in the past. I lost one of my really important/close/best friends in the past during the same time my parents got divorced also during the time my first girlfriend cheated on me. after my parents divorce and gf cheating i fell back into a deep anxiety that whenever im sleeping i feel like im getting chocked. There was one night that the anxiety was so bad i had to go to hospital at 2AM cos i was unable to breathe. The chocking lasted for about 6 months till i started to get better. Music has always been my passion, I've managed to release my own EP on iTUNES and MV in the last 4 years but my father has always been trying to get me to stop and never really supported me in my music. During my 4 years doing music i've met many people who pretended they wanted to help me out, but end up just using me. People who knew i was doing music always wanted to know if i know any celebrity (i've met some during my music years) and wanted me to introduce to them. I also met girls who pretended to be nice to me so that i would like them and be their bitch and do whatever they wanted me to do. I've even met a girl who wanted to be famous that she got close to me and when she started to get popular, she threw me out as if i was a battery that ran out of electricity.

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2 Name: Anonymous : 2015-02-02 12:26 ID:67v+i2sH

can I listen to some of your music?

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4 Name: Anonymous : 2015-02-18 00:42 ID:Heaven

>>3
http://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/british/fag

> fag noun (YOUNG BOY)
> › [C] UK old-fashioned (at some large British private schools) a younger boy who has to do jobs for an older boy
> If a younger boy fags for an older boy at a British private school, he does jobs for him.
> Idioms
> can't be fagged

5 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-09 11:01 ID:PN5eoKTS

Did you move to Taiwan to start life over? How have you found it to work for you?

I know this thread is a couple months old so OP might not be checking it, but I can relate to the fundamental sentiment being posted here that all people are inherently bad.

It sounds like you've went through some shit, but it also sounds like you've accomplished some good things, too. You may not feel it at the moment, but getting your music out there really is an achievement, and your average everyday person will never do something like that. Sure, people will try to use you to get ahead, but you can't judge your accomplishments by that. Try to look at it from the perspective of the self, instead: you set out to do something, you committed to it, you saw it to completion, and you released it to the public. That's an accomplishment, no matter how many people download it.

And on top of that, you're living in Taiwan. Your post insinuates that you are from a Western country, so I don't think you need me to tell you how big of a deal it is to make a move like that, especially considering the fact that most people stay in their hometown all their lives, or at most only move a couple hours away.

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6 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-04 08:35 ID:o7bclE2r

OP here

>>2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qXppETR7GI you can hear it here :)

>>5 well two months ago i went back to Australia for a month, apparently that helped me a lot. i think it might be because i was in taiwan for too long and prob just miss my hometown (forgot to mention i grew up in Australia). I think its just the culture in Taiwan is so different that people often judge me thinking Im taiwanese and expect me to know certain things.

I had a thought about all the things i've accomplished and i feel a lot better, like you said the average person will never do something like that.

Going back to Australia made me feel a lot better was people back in Australia are a lot nicer compare to Taiwan. I think the problem i had was i couldn't let go of the past especially the people who made me go through shit, I just told my self i had to let it go and after it was pretty much all good now. plus i think working helps a lot as it gets your mind off things

7 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-05 04:23 ID:MP+rYkn7

How do you fail at suicide? It seems to me you have to be either retarded or an edgy fag who actually wanted to live to do that.

NotATroll

8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-18 01:48 ID:kGCUA4UV

Not OP here, but it's pretty common for people to fail. They'll take a bunch of pills or some drug and think it will kill them, but instead they end up passed-out and found by someone who brings them to the hospital. Not a pleasant experience in any case. I imagine it would be like the worst headache you ever had, combined with worst hangover, and multiplied by a unknown number...

You have to remember: the people doing this aren't (usually) acting rationally. It's no surprise that they fail. In a lot of cases, there is an overwhelming emotional or brain chemistry problem. Ironically, if you fix that, the suicide thoughts go away...

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Ever feel you don't belong in this era? (111)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2009-10-08 14:18 ID:LbWHCHMe

I feel like I don't belong here. Like I was born in the wrong era. People around me are on a different wavelength. I feel like I was supposed to be somewhere else doing something else living a different life.

102 Name: Anonymous : 2013-04-15 19:49 ID:lLGYEC9s

Yeah, this era does suck in quite a few ways. The decline of human interaction, and decay of reading/writing abilities due to mobile devices and "text speak" sucks - those in the past were far better spoken without such distractions.

The sucky, repetitive quality music has taken on also makes this a crummy era. In the past, you could trace major developments in music ranging from stuff like the Beatles/Stones/Hendrix 60's to the hard/prog/glam etc. 70's, to the distinct 80's right up to grunge. Now, for the most part, mainstream music is just a grinding miasma of overproduced pop and derivative rap. History and progression in music has just halted, much like the way fashion has stagnated in comparison to developments in the 20th century.

103 Name: David Bump : 2013-11-19 00:42 ID:N39SXVKV

There's now a wiki for people who have the feeling they don't belong in this world, or at least not anywhere in it now. Seems like there's quite a few of us, but only a couple have contributed so far. Are we so different, except for this feeling, that we can't really form much of a group? Or can we join hands and make a bit of a different world of our own together?

http://sehnsucht.wikia.com/wiki/Sehnsucht_Wiki

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00E88YXCG/ref=dm_ty_trk

104 Name: Walst : 2015-02-23 19:37 ID:B1bVxT7A

Yep, same shit.

105 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-13 04:28 ID:QcyMwKgb

>>102

>The decline of human interaction

I agree with this, I feel like most of the people I interact with are emotionally stunted in some way. Probably because a growing proportion of human contact now is over the internet, which disconnects people from others, or at least makes it easier to ignore how you might affect them.

106 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-19 19:03 ID:XWAnUsuJ

I used to think that this "glorious future" is going someday reach me. No matter how much I rise and improve it doesn't seem to come.
Once believed that I was actually born in the wrong era and being born 30 years earlier might have been a happier and more well ajusted person.
But no, something is fucked up with me personally in any time to be born in

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109 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-14 08:08 ID:Heaven

Ever feel you don't belong in this era?
No.

110 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-15 12:50 ID:u5bKOS/o

>>109
Well, that's right because you are still a teen.

111 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-18 01:10 ID:SWLrzfyL

Well I'm a programmer by trade, but I don't really like what modern computing has become. Things seemed more exciting in the 80's, with a thriving ecosystem of different computer architectures. It was especially nice here in France (and rest of Europe), because there wasn't any kind of "video game crash" event that allowed the market to consolidate into the hands of only a few players. Instead, in the mid-to-late 80's we had ZX Spectrum machines coexisting with Apple II's, Amstrad CPC's, Atari ST, Amiga, IBM PC and clones, various french stuff, and even MSX machines.

But now, just like everywhere else, it's just PC clones everywhere. There is really nothing cool or exciting on the horizon, and never anything revolutionary like the Amiga.

I've used Linux, and BSD (and still do) but even that doesn't satisfy me. The systems keep getting more complex and bloated every year. Web browsers of course are totally ridiculous now. The standards are also over-complicated. Instead of simple serial and parallel ports (which are very easy to program and write drivers for), we now how this USB monster that I'm positive nobody has ever written a bug-free implementation. Besides that, a lot of modern hardware is difficult to write drivers for in general. So even if you were to try and write your own OS (as the TempleOS guy has attempted), it would be an impossible task to make it run on anything but VMWare or other virtual machine.

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Tell me about your NEET life (11)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-04 11:13 ID:bK7JockM

let me indulge in your problems, im here to listen and i want to help you guys out, unfortunately not directly, but with a project.

surveymonkey.com/s/FHZ7FMY

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 14:05 ID:UdrJShEN

Working is for losers

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-09 10:50 ID:TuOphJTt

働いたら負けかなと思ってる

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5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-13 21:24 ID:4dtZyTLV

History is my main hobby

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-14 10:26 ID:Heaven

I study Burmese

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-27 06:46 ID:4GzQRW+A

You die if you work
I cannot permit myself to help someone else accomplish work

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10 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-28 13:53 ID:LOZmlM+j

>>1
i masturbate multiple times daily

11 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-15 12:51 ID:6SHnhHvl

Won't tell you anything, because of reasons.

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Pedophile discussion thread. (3)

1 Name: RedCream : 2015-05-23 02:40 ID:yXJ3581v

Talk about shit that tears you up and discuss it with everyone. This is not a fucking circlejerk, and no unrepentant scum stains are welcome. Speak here if you are sexually attracted to underage people and honestly want to break down the issues and shit. I'm out of that crap (believe it or not) and I want to share my struggle with other people.

This is an anonymous therapy session. But not weak ass excuses.

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3 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-11 02:16 ID:ETuxDtjs

go to bed chris

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my life (17)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 22:42 ID:P7RBvgkT

(I fucked the first thread, someone please delete that.)
I've had no real memories of happiness, as far as I can recall. My first memory was of my mother dragging me in pyjamas, barefoot, across the city to show me the place where my father was having sex with his lover. I recall my mother telling e and my little sister to call dad to her new lover of the week after they divorced. I remember my mother teaching me to distrust everyone else but herself. I remember learning too well; I learned to distrust everybody, including my mother and my little sister.
I was bullied until I was 14. I would end crying mos of the time. My mother would ask me why I was crying, then she would hit me for not telling her why, and then again for not stop crying.
My father tried to choke us out of her by sending her a little money as possible. We had to move over twenty times because we were not able to pay the rent.
I eventually stopped crying for a while.
Still, my sister would try to find everything she could about me, so she could tell my mother, and gain a little recognition on her eyes. She was starving for affection, and if that included sacrificing her brother for it, so be it.
Eventually my mother married the first man stupid enough to fall for her. They had a child, ad he grew to become a psycho. He has tried to poison me twice.
I think I was almost happy when I had my first girlfriend. We were fourteen, and to her was the only one who would listen. To me, she was the only one who I could trust, and love. When I ound out she was bulimic, it became a hell for me, since I was afraid to lose her everyday.

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-30 12:28 ID:dw8vgw6z

>>7
You'll feel better if you share details, people here will read what you write

9 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-31 23:02 ID:wZs9nB4e

Actually, nothing improves. It would be futile.

10 Name: Anonymous : 2014-06-06 09:34 ID:Ix3V4vUn

Don't feel like that. Life is a gift. I'm depressed and then I think:
I have two legs. I can walk wherever I want to. I will walk.

11 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-29 23:51 ID:oGJPkZFI

My heart still beats, I hate it.

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13 Name: Anonymous : 2014-11-01 16:42 ID:S07FRigB

Start running. Run like hell. Run until you cannot run anymore. It'll numb the pain.

14 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-28 09:56 ID:XMOikB48

you made plenty with what you had

if you wanted to you could do it again

15 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-22 18:49 ID:bgu6DM5p

Op here.
My father died of AIDS related health issues almost two months ago, no wonder given his lifestyle. I felt nothing. As usual.
I was unable to find a job as a teacher this year.I didn't try very hard, since I dn't think I could have made a good job as a teacher in this metal state of utter apathy. I was thinking of trying suicide, but my siblings (I'm the eldest of seven) are already quite shocked with my father's death.
The rest of my family have taken every chance to use his death as an excuse to be drama queens and play the high-school alpha bitch.
I got a cat. She is happy to see me. I like petting her, but that's it. I guess she must be quite the happy cat.

16 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-23 06:41 ID:VpDHF8Ue

you're not op

17 Name: Anonymous : 2015-04-01 23:30 ID:afc5V3E2

What kind of things do you like to do?

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Questions for self (2)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-17 18:57 ID:Bmh9bIva

What are you doing?
Why are you doing it?
What do you want to do doing?
What makes you happy?

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Witch stole my penis (8)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-09-20 23:49 ID:M1W+O8Hz

A witch stole my penis what do I do? I don't think they will let me burn her on a stake.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-07 15:07 ID:M1W+O8Hz

Plz help. Life is empty without penis.

3 Name: fliers2 : 2014-12-10 06:13 ID:nfxcHB3d

this is interesting

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5 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-02 07:55 ID:TEnv5ePC

This must of been quite the traumatic experience for you, I wish I could help but I know nothing about penis theft.

6 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-12 19:50 ID:vNJvnz4Y

The only way is to steal another man's penis. It's a shitty thing to do but you have no choice.

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-15 21:11 ID:NTlgEB2m

>>7
You can just ask politely and she will give it to you.

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