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1: my life (17) 2: Tell me about your NEET life (9) 3: Ever feel you don't belong in this era? (106) 4: Questions for self (2) 5: Witch stole my penis (8) 6: My family expects too much from me (10) 7: lost fain in humans (5) 8: I'm gay and I'm scared. (34) 9: My story (10) 10: When I was a teenager, I molested someone... (18) 11: My story. Pls read it.. (14) 12: Hikikomoris/Hikikomori wannabes: How do you make money for a living? (213) 13: CP... (13) 14: I have really serious problem with my life.please help (3) 15: (How to get over) Guilt from losing my Virginity? (10) 16: Please teach me English (7) 17: Azazel has come to me in dreams (10) 18: Schizoid Jobs (9) 19: Endless despair (10) 20: Trying to become friends with neighbors (1) 21: penis borg (1) 22: ugly black monster in my porn (2) 23: gaynal sex (1) 24: my life (3) 25: A friend Died Today (9) 26: Not Social (7) 27: Sean Kinnier Sex Offender (1) 28: Men who raped women and got away with it (6) 29: Ways to Increase My Will? (6) 30: Indian Apts (4) 31: DOMINANT ASIAN WOMEN/submissive white men (13) 32: Please stop my deed which I would do that about revenge porn (7) 33: Sexually molested by older brother. Should I tell to my family? (155) 34: lonely (5) 35: how to fail as a neurotypical individual (6) 36: Genuine Loners - Coping with Society (149) 37: I think I have an eating disorder... how do I stop myself? (4) 38: Hikikomori: Can you be hiki and still gainfully employed? (15) 39: Quant (3) 40: I just want somone to fucking hug me. (59)

my life (17)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 22:42 ID:P7RBvgkT

(I fucked the first thread, someone please delete that.)
I've had no real memories of happiness, as far as I can recall. My first memory was of my mother dragging me in pyjamas, barefoot, across the city to show me the place where my father was having sex with his lover. I recall my mother telling e and my little sister to call dad to her new lover of the week after they divorced. I remember my mother teaching me to distrust everyone else but herself. I remember learning too well; I learned to distrust everybody, including my mother and my little sister.
I was bullied until I was 14. I would end crying mos of the time. My mother would ask me why I was crying, then she would hit me for not telling her why, and then again for not stop crying.
My father tried to choke us out of her by sending her a little money as possible. We had to move over twenty times because we were not able to pay the rent.
I eventually stopped crying for a while.
Still, my sister would try to find everything she could about me, so she could tell my mother, and gain a little recognition on her eyes. She was starving for affection, and if that included sacrificing her brother for it, so be it.
Eventually my mother married the first man stupid enough to fall for her. They had a child, ad he grew to become a psycho. He has tried to poison me twice.
I think I was almost happy when I had my first girlfriend. We were fourteen, and to her was the only one who would listen. To me, she was the only one who I could trust, and love. When I ound out she was bulimic, it became a hell for me, since I was afraid to lose her everyday.

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-30 12:28 ID:dw8vgw6z

You'll feel better if you share details, people here will read what you write

9 Name: Anonymous : 2014-05-31 23:02 ID:wZs9nB4e

Actually, nothing improves. It would be futile.

10 Name: Anonymous : 2014-06-06 09:34 ID:Ix3V4vUn

Don't feel like that. Life is a gift. I'm depressed and then I think:
I have two legs. I can walk wherever I want to. I will walk.

11 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-29 23:51 ID:oGJPkZFI

My heart still beats, I hate it.

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13 Name: Anonymous : 2014-11-01 16:42 ID:S07FRigB

Start running. Run like hell. Run until you cannot run anymore. It'll numb the pain.

14 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-28 09:56 ID:XMOikB48

you made plenty with what you had

if you wanted to you could do it again

15 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-22 18:49 ID:bgu6DM5p

Op here.
My father died of AIDS related health issues almost two months ago, no wonder given his lifestyle. I felt nothing. As usual.
I was unable to find a job as a teacher this year.I didn't try very hard, since I dn't think I could have made a good job as a teacher in this metal state of utter apathy. I was thinking of trying suicide, but my siblings (I'm the eldest of seven) are already quite shocked with my father's death.
The rest of my family have taken every chance to use his death as an excuse to be drama queens and play the high-school alpha bitch.
I got a cat. She is happy to see me. I like petting her, but that's it. I guess she must be quite the happy cat.

16 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-23 06:41 ID:VpDHF8Ue

you're not op

17 Name: Anonymous : 2015-04-01 23:30 ID:afc5V3E2

What kind of things do you like to do?

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Tell me about your NEET life (9)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-04 11:13 ID:bK7JockM

let me indulge in your problems, im here to listen and i want to help you guys out, unfortunately not directly, but with a project.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 14:05 ID:UdrJShEN

Working is for losers

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-09 10:50 ID:TuOphJTt


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5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-13 21:24 ID:4dtZyTLV

History is my main hobby

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-14 10:26 ID:Heaven

I study Burmese

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-27 06:46 ID:4GzQRW+A

You die if you work
I cannot permit myself to help someone else accomplish work

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Ever feel you don't belong in this era? (106)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2009-10-08 14:18 ID:LbWHCHMe

I feel like I don't belong here. Like I was born in the wrong era. People around me are on a different wavelength. I feel like I was supposed to be somewhere else doing something else living a different life.

97 Name: surfmen : 2012-05-07 02:05 ID:e7CZiiPX

i wish i was born in the year the we would be in space,realize the human potential,school would actually be fun(im a teen)and girls would dress more futuristic-fashion and more revealing.digimon would exist and life would be perfecto!

98 Name: Anonymous : 2012-05-28 16:33 ID:eu1pqM1X

I feel just like Saira

99 Name: Anonymous : 2012-06-06 18:42 ID:WxMld9rd

i think i am born in the wrong place, i live in WoW and should have stayed there. it sucks everytime i need to disconnect,

100 Name: Anonymous : 2012-10-09 06:14 ID:kw3Vw6v+

Wow browsing through some of the replies on here are entertaining! I am from the future 2012 since this is an old topic lol I really liked the one reply someone said about standing in the rain staring up at the sky if i saw someone doing that I'd be like what the fuck. Thanks for the laugh.

101 Name: imagain : 2013-04-04 06:43 ID:JiqkzjMR

>>1>>1i feel lost..... can anyone understand me???
i dont feel like i should be here, when i talk to friends about how i feel they think i mean death... suicide but i dont i just dont feel like this is my time, i have no connection whatsoever to this life i dont even have a connection of any kind with my blood family as i feel i dont belong. in this day and age it is widely aknowlaged that u can be born in to the wrong body..... if that is the case then surley u can be born into the wrong time zone?.

102 Name: Anonymous : 2013-04-15 19:49 ID:lLGYEC9s

Yeah, this era does suck in quite a few ways. The decline of human interaction, and decay of reading/writing abilities due to mobile devices and "text speak" sucks - those in the past were far better spoken without such distractions.

The sucky, repetitive quality music has taken on also makes this a crummy era. In the past, you could trace major developments in music ranging from stuff like the Beatles/Stones/Hendrix 60's to the hard/prog/glam etc. 70's, to the distinct 80's right up to grunge. Now, for the most part, mainstream music is just a grinding miasma of overproduced pop and derivative rap. History and progression in music has just halted, much like the way fashion has stagnated in comparison to developments in the 20th century.

103 Name: David Bump : 2013-11-19 00:42 ID:N39SXVKV

There's now a wiki for people who have the feeling they don't belong in this world, or at least not anywhere in it now. Seems like there's quite a few of us, but only a couple have contributed so far. Are we so different, except for this feeling, that we can't really form much of a group? Or can we join hands and make a bit of a different world of our own together?

104 Name: Walst : 2015-02-23 19:37 ID:B1bVxT7A

Yep, same shit.

105 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-13 04:28 ID:QcyMwKgb


>The decline of human interaction

I agree with this, I feel like most of the people I interact with are emotionally stunted in some way. Probably because a growing proportion of human contact now is over the internet, which disconnects people from others, or at least makes it easier to ignore how you might affect them.

106 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-19 19:03 ID:XWAnUsuJ

I used to think that this "glorious future" is going someday reach me. No matter how much I rise and improve it doesn't seem to come.
Once believed that I was actually born in the wrong era and being born 30 years earlier might have been a happier and more well ajusted person.
But no, something is fucked up with me personally in any time to be born in

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Questions for self (2)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-17 18:57 ID:Bmh9bIva

What are you doing?
Why are you doing it?
What do you want to do doing?
What makes you happy?

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Witch stole my penis (8)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-09-20 23:49 ID:M1W+O8Hz

A witch stole my penis what do I do? I don't think they will let me burn her on a stake.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-07 15:07 ID:M1W+O8Hz

Plz help. Life is empty without penis.

3 Name: fliers2 : 2014-12-10 06:13 ID:nfxcHB3d

this is interesting

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5 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-02 07:55 ID:TEnv5ePC

This must of been quite the traumatic experience for you, I wish I could help but I know nothing about penis theft.

6 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-12 19:50 ID:vNJvnz4Y

The only way is to steal another man's penis. It's a shitty thing to do but you have no choice.

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-15 21:11 ID:NTlgEB2m

You can just ask politely and she will give it to you.

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My family expects too much from me (10)

1 Name: samarth : 2012-08-30 13:48 ID:+ijthnGv

hi ,i am a 16 year old male from india , and i want to become a physicist , and i am quite good in maths and physics but my dad always keeps nagging me to be good in everything and shit , and i have come to hate him .He made bad decisions in his life , which he doesnt want me to make , so he has always been very strict with me . I JUST WANT HIM TO LEAVE ME ALONE !! my relation with my family is bad , i dont talk with my sister and only sometimes with my mother and as i said before , i hate me freaking dad . advice,maybe ?

2 Name: Anonymous@Call the cops, I don't give a fuck : 2012-08-30 18:06 ID:tPbbIyFG

run away. no money? steal!

also, do you really want to become a physicist? or do you choose that because you think you have to choose something? because you don't.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2012-08-31 08:41 ID:fKOHf85l

You're an idiot.

Life is tough. Boo hoo.

4 Name: Anonymous : 2012-09-01 16:23 ID:r1tQ2Rlf

I think you should be more open about this to your family.
Bottling things up won't work anyways. Try to talk to you sister and/or mother first. Try to get them to help you to support you.

5 Name: Anonymous : 2012-09-03 00:51 ID:Heaven

no, you!

6 Name: Anonymous : 2012-09-03 05:40 ID:fKOHf85l


7 Name: Anonymous : 2012-09-04 18:24 ID:IkANJkxY

It is your life. Do with it what you will. Yeah it will probably lead to some problems with your parents. But you have free will. Your own free will.

8 Name: Anonymous : 2013-08-31 08:56 ID:ipHfIlhp

by definition , you are superior to your biological father

somehow society got this the wrong way around

just leave india cause its not going anywhere

corruption ruins lives

9 Name: Walst : 2015-02-23 19:35 ID:IGzdv0zu

Study where you want, live like you want.
Your life - not your fathers life.

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lost fain in humans (5)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-23 15:01 ID:nuYSVlxP

I'm 25 years old living in taiwan at the moment, Over the years i've experienced shitloads of things. When i was 16 i went through major depression till i was 18, people at school often mocked me either for my fat (i was pretty chubby back then) or just cos i was too nice, during those two years i've attempted suicide twice but failed. A Old close/best friend of mine saved me back then and inspired me to keep living and work hard. I've met girls who tried to take advantage of me because i was being too nice, i end up getting hurt my self many times in the past. I lost one of my really important/close/best friends in the past during the same time my parents got divorced also during the time my first girlfriend cheated on me. after my parents divorce and gf cheating i fell back into a deep anxiety that whenever im sleeping i feel like im getting chocked. There was one night that the anxiety was so bad i had to go to hospital at 2AM cos i was unable to breathe. The chocking lasted for about 6 months till i started to get better. Music has always been my passion, I've managed to release my own EP on iTUNES and MV in the last 4 years but my father has always been trying to get me to stop and never really supported me in my music. During my 4 years doing music i've met many people who pretended they wanted to help me out, but end up just using me. People who knew i was doing music always wanted to know if i know any celebrity (i've met some during my music years) and wanted me to introduce to them. I also met girls who pretended to be nice to me so that i would like them and be their bitch and do whatever they wanted me to do. I've even met a girl who wanted to be famous that she got close to me and when she started to get popular, she threw me out as if i was a battery that ran out of electricity.

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2 Name: Anonymous : 2015-02-02 12:26 ID:67v+i2sH

can I listen to some of your music?

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4 Name: Anonymous : 2015-02-18 00:42 ID:Heaven


> fag noun (YOUNG BOY)
> › [C] UK old-fashioned (at some large British private schools) a younger boy who has to do jobs for an older boy
> If a younger boy fags for an older boy at a British private school, he does jobs for him.
> Idioms
> can't be fagged

5 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-09 11:01 ID:PN5eoKTS

Did you move to Taiwan to start life over? How have you found it to work for you?

I know this thread is a couple months old so OP might not be checking it, but I can relate to the fundamental sentiment being posted here that all people are inherently bad.

It sounds like you've went through some shit, but it also sounds like you've accomplished some good things, too. You may not feel it at the moment, but getting your music out there really is an achievement, and your average everyday person will never do something like that. Sure, people will try to use you to get ahead, but you can't judge your accomplishments by that. Try to look at it from the perspective of the self, instead: you set out to do something, you committed to it, you saw it to completion, and you released it to the public. That's an accomplishment, no matter how many people download it.

And on top of that, you're living in Taiwan. Your post insinuates that you are from a Western country, so I don't think you need me to tell you how big of a deal it is to make a move like that, especially considering the fact that most people stay in their hometown all their lives, or at most only move a couple hours away.

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I'm gay and I'm scared. (34)

1 Name: AliD123 : 2011-12-29 11:59 ID:xWDZFYiC

So...Hi. My name is Emily. I'm 16.
This new girl moved into our neighborhood, and we've been sort of seeing each other. I think I love her. I used to have a boyfriend but with him it just felt...wrong. His skin was too dry and he was too messy and just...not like a girl. But with Courtney(thats her name) it feels right, and different.
This is the part that scares me. She wants to come out. She wants to be in a 'real relationship' but I can't. My parents are so...perfect? They're strict Catholics and I have an older sister who is so caught up in solving math problems she doesn't notice that I hardly sleep at night. I know my parents would never understand. They'd send me to live in Iowa or something.
I don't want to be gay, but I don't know what to do. I was in love with a girl before, but it would never have worked out.
I really need some advice. I have no idea how to deal with this.

25 Name: Anonymous : 2012-01-21 20:41 ID:0DrGGHbz

>>22 I'm not lgbt, and this is not the issue. The problem is that her parents are about to do something seriously damaging to their daughter. We are not advising her to cut ties with her parents, but to take the required steps to preserve her own integrity (which I hope involve simply some discussion and counseling, and nothing so drastic as separation). By doing that, she is more likely to safeguard the family's integrity than by submissively accepting to be hurt.

Nevertheless, I do agree that she should use official and well-trained channels to reach for help.

26 Name: Pixel8 : 2012-01-21 21:48 ID:7gkyFuMT

Chris, who posted above, is a solid resource from an excellent organization. I would be happy to put you in touch & show you how you can verify their authenticity before you trust them. Again, my email is

27 Name: Chamomile : 2012-01-21 22:12 ID:aJxakJag

Emily, what's the name of the camp in question? They vary from "mostly just inconvenient" to "the thing of nightmares," if you give us a name we can do some digging and find out just how much you should be willing to sacrifice to avoid being sent there. If in doubt, err on the side of caution, which in this case means staying as far away from Utah-based homosexual "cure" camps as possible. They tend to lean towards the nightmare side of things and it will cause permanent psychological damage to you if it does. Yes, you can recover from these camps to the point where you can move on and be happy with your life, but it will leave permanent scars.

I'm trying not to scare you, because it's important to stay calm and rational and make your own choices instead of acting on blind faith in strangers from the internet due to panic, but it really is important you understand the stakes here.

A few suggestions.

First, a lot of people have provided links to organizations that might be able to protect you. If they can, this would be, by far, the most preferable option. It's low-risk and socially sanctioned, which will probably make an eventual reconciliation with your parents much easier if you decide you want one.

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28 Name: lilmissmoonshine : 2012-01-23 18:48 ID:f+KVDxvF

I wanted to say, don't be afraid of Utah as a place to start over if you need to get away once you're there/can't get away before then. It has the deserved Mormon reputation, but as a result the gay community is extremely loving, accepting, and tight-knit. I recently moved away so I can't really give you any further advice than that and can't offer you a place to stay, but I'm on your side. We're all on your side. I've been in your position before and remember; your parents love you, and they don't understand. This is a horrible, knee-jerk reaction born of ignorance. It's awful, but it's going to be okay. I swear it gets better. Message me if you need somebody to talk to, but I definitely advise going to reddit (r/lgbt or r/ainbow) as a source of help and advice.

29 Name: Anonymous : 2012-01-26 18:36 ID:Urm1vyHH

Oh crap I am worried about her.

30 Name: Pixel8 : 2012-01-30 11:07 ID:7gkyFuMT

I'm worried about her, too. She has not contacted me yet.

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34 Name: Walst : 2015-02-23 19:24 ID:9yaDorGu

So, that is normal, is bisexuality. I was 15 years old when I fell inlove with a girl. And my thoughts was like "Wtf, I am inlove with a girl, that is wreid"
I had alot of hours of thinking about it, and understood, that this girl is too important to me. I told to her about my feelings, and we were together.
Bisexuality - is not terrible thing. You just love a person. Person, which understand you and you don't feel empty.
So, what about parents, just don't tell to them. They may not understand that. Just live with your feelings.

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My story (10)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-10 10:36 ID:GhLfXuYH

I'm 22, I study mathematics. I used to skateboard and drink lots of alcohol in my 13-18s. My parents would always give me money and I would leave the house for 8-10 hours, skateboarding and drinking. I do not remember much from that age. I do remember myself being an exceptional kid earlier than that. Others would always tell me how smart and kind I am. I was also a brat sometimes, bragging about the expensive stuff that I would get from my parents (but I do remember that I did this without malice). I also remember myself having philosophical thoughts. A particular one was that I was wondering about infinite universes hiding inside the atoms. I remember having problems in school (being called hyperactive).

Later, in high school, things would get much worse, and most teachers would consider me the worst of the worst. I would often be a human shield for other students. When something in class went wrong and some student was blamed, if I judged that the teacher was incorrectly blaming him/her, I would do something even more stupid, so that the attention would drift to my case. This naturally caused me to have many enemies in the teachers' circle. My life would be wasted if I hadn't gotten a computer. I started learning programming on my own and I pretty much mastered it. I did this because I wanted to be a hacker. I had deep political convictions back then, and I wanted to push my own agenda by hacking important servers and putting up messages. I did not succeed, but I later lost interest in that. This interest in programming, however, saved me: I learned to study on my own, and when the time came, I managed to get into university and study maths. I was always very good at maths.

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2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-12 11:57 ID:24Z1LfGC

I am glad that you did not become a hacker. Prison is not really a nice place for smart guys. Find a job and make some friends.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-12 23:38 ID:RMaAMEoP

I'm also lonely. youare so young.

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-13 20:03 ID:GhLfXuYH

thank you

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-11 15:26 ID:fXwpvaVN

You are getting PHD great!! But what is more important is getting proper good paying job! Good luck

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7 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-11 18:48 ID:4mUw2U8b

I think your story is great, sorry you feel so lonely.

I also think getting a computer saved my life. A lot of my middle school and high school friends drank and did drugs, but early on I was never really tempted to join them because there were so many incredible things I could do with my computer. If I spent my time on the internet, I could make new friends, build websites and learn new things. It always seemed like a much better time investment.

I went through a brief period in high school where I did drugs. My main motivation was loneliness and curiosity. It didn't last long, but around that period I made lot of bad decisions and felt horrible about myself. I even contemplated suicide around that time.

Eventually, I realized I was just in a vicious cycle of bad behavior and knew I wanted to change. Once again, I went back to my computer and started to teach myself things. I learned how to be less shy. I joined some forums dedicated to self-improvement. I changed how I acted in school and started to make more friends IRL. Not long after, I started programming again and started my own business while still in school.

Thanks for sharing your story OP. I'll keep this thread open in a tab and check back periodically if you ever come back and want to chat.

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-22 16:31 ID:J0F3gE3Z

Our stories have similarities. I hope you get to read this message.

It's been many months since I posted >>1. Let's see what changed and what stayed the same:

I am still kinda lonely but not as much as before. I have finally found out the source of my problems: It was alcohol all along. I went to a psychologist for the first time in my life. I guess I was lucky because in just 2 dates I already had figured out what was wrong. After I told him my story he told me I'm an alcoholic (before the first date with him I had a couple of binge drink episodes that brought me to my knees, even though I was sober from 01-01-14, which was the reason I went to him). I also discussed anger issues and loneliness.

He wanted me to focus on figuring out who I am and what I want from others and then to search for it. He also wanted me to sign up for some group therapy for alcoholics. I didn't want to do any of that so I stopped going to him. I believe that after realizing that I am an alcoholic, I can finally face it properly by never drinking again and always denying a drink no matter what others say to persuade me (you wouldn't believe how persistent some people are! especially those that don't know me).

Turns out this was the real source of my problems: loneliness emerged as a side-effect because I considered myself different from others; I didn't know I was craving alcohol. Anger also disappeared for the most part and I managed to fix my relationship with my parents, or at least improve it by a lot. I used to think anger was a part of my personality (and that's why I used to let myself get carried by it), but after realizing I'm an alcoholic I realized it's just another side-effect of addiction.

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9 Name: Anonymous : 2015-02-05 22:28 ID:C7g9hF/g

Go on lad ;)

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When I was a teenager, I molested someone... (18)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2009-04-15 00:09 ID:MakfLLq1

When I was 14, I molested my sister. She was was almost four the first time and the second time was just after she turned four. The first time, I actually pulled her pants down and touched her bottom, but the second time was just me taking my time helping her in the restroom. Neither time did I ask her to touch me or even show her my penis.

I was recently recovering from a long amount of physical and emotional abuse from my father, and had previously been molested twice in my youth. I was also suffering from some fairly serious mental problems. I say this not to excuse my actions, but to provide more of an explanation of what was going on then.

As time went on and I have returned to a more normal mental state, I look back upon what I have done in horror and guilt. I don't really know what effects this may have had on my sister (she is still fairly young) but I don't really look back on my molestations negatively. I still feel guilty, though.

However, a larger emotion that I am now feeling is fear. What if she remembers? What if she does not? I certainly remember being that age, but I developed rather quickly. Her linguistic skills have always been behind. What if she remembers and eventually tells someone and my life is ruined? What if.... etc?

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9 Name: Cant say : 2012-05-26 03:25 ID:RnFZmwW3

Im scared to death. I was molested when i was 13, and when i was 14 i molestedmy neice and nephew... Im 17 niw, and when i look back im horrified i wouldnt ever hurt them now, id die for them. I never meant any harm, i was just curious... i feel like killing myself now!! Ive heard that its common for children who have been molested to 'experiment' with other going to kill myself. I love these kids, and i feel like a monster. Should i tell someone?!

10 Name: anon : 2012-06-05 14:58 ID:xGsu/10P

I am a licensed mental health counselor. I suggest that you make an appointment to get into therapy as soon as you can. You owe it to yourself to talk with a professional about this and to sort it out. I assume that you are carrying some uncertainty, guilt, shame and other feelings about what happened with your sister. If you don't deal with feelings with a trained professional you risk being vulnerable emotionally in a number of ways. I wish you luck and I hope you take my advice.

11 Name: anon : 2012-06-05 15:12 ID:xGsu/10P

Dear Can't say,
I am a licensed mental health counselor. I suggest that you make an appointment to get into therapy as soon as you can. You owe it to yourself to talk with a professional about this and to sort it out. I assume that you are carrying some uncertainty, guilt, shame and other feelings about what happened with other kids and about what happened to you. If you don't deal with feelings with a trained professional you risk being vulnerable emotionally in a number of ways and this is no way to live. This experience does not define you but you need a safe place to sort it out and not on a public chat. It's always best to face difficult things in one's life than to keep it a secret and run away from it because we can never run away from something like this. Suicide is a permenant solution to a temporary problem and would be a very poor attempt at solving this one. You can solve this by getting into therapy, talking it out, dealing with your feelings differently and taking responsibility for your actions. You can do it! I wish you luck and I hope you take my advice and get the professional support that you need to face this issue and heal.

12 Name: jjhg987 : 2012-12-07 17:42 ID:KLEA1NIs

Hi I'm 20 male about to be 21 and i know exactly how you feel. when i was 11 or 12 i molested my best friends little sister. Its been fucking me fucking my whole life I regret it everyday. And just like you I'm scared shes going to getting to around that age where she right remember and shes going to tell someone. i really would like to do the right thing and talks things out or what ever, because i truly do regret it but also if she doesn't remember and i say something then everyone will trip. I don't know what to do and everyday i live in fear shes going to tell her brother, my childhood best friend, who used to live with me, and hes going to kick my ass.

13 Name: Anonymous : 2012-12-13 11:43 ID:w7wN/dO4

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14 Name: Turrentcase : 2013-02-20 23:16 ID:aOnuaCUZ

I to did the same thing and i feel alot of guilt, but i got my forgiveness from my sister, God, and Jesus. I was confused at the time, it's alright! We need to move along, more people than you know do this. Now that 2 years have passed since i did this (age of 15...17 now) i'm very protective of my sister around my father.

15 Name: Turrentcase : 2013-02-20 23:17 ID:aOnuaCUZ

I to did the same thing and i feel alot of guilt, but i got my forgiveness from my sister, God, and Jesus. I was confused at the time, it's alright! We need to move along, more people than you know do this. Now that 2 years have passed since i did this (age of 15...17 now) i'm very protective of my sister around my father.

16 Name: anonymous : 2014-11-04 14:02 ID:yYnhebPz

Im 15 and when i was twelve i touched my lil cousin boy and girl and when i see them i wanna kill them it hurts me everyday to know what i did i wish i could take it back i want help but i don't want jail time i didn't mean it i don't know why i did that please i beg for forgiveness im dying every day regreting w
The horrible thing i done im a mpnstrr i should be dead i need to die

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18 Name: amber : 2015-01-23 20:21 ID:o+Ps74j9

ur sick u need god in your life what u need to do is go to jail instead of posting online and saying all that stupied shit how much u regret and etc u need to go to jail

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