I felt pretty real to me.
Sorry, but I think it really is all in just getting off your ass and facing up to the fact that the world is all one big assfuck and we all gotta take a turn.
I can come up with all kinds of social/mental disorders and even make up a few...but..seriously. It's all in getting off your ass and on your feet. Out of the shade and into the street.
Feel free to resume academia/the workplace/society.