I was a hikikomori for about two years, until about three weeks ago. Age 15-17. Went outside of my room to take a shit/piss, get something to eat, didn't go to school, sat on the internet as much as I could. I think I learned a lot, being alone with a vast amount of readily-available knowledge, the means to communicate with like-minded individuals, and at the same time having complete ignorance of what is happening outside the door.

I temporarily went cold-turkey on the internet, got a full-time job, basically thrust myself into society. I'd have to say, I am saddened by the participants of society I am now surrounded with. I'm not as good as I'd like to be at communicating and there's no way I can tell somebody all of the things I have to say, so I have the internet to communicate with people.

I'm not happy with the requirement for money that previous generations have set up for people like me. I put all of my value in the immaterial; companionship, understanding, trust, anything having to do with love. I am forced to be part of a society that is materialistic, dishonest, shallow... it hurts to think about it.

I guess what I need to do now is make a few IRL relationships, with people who can relate with what I am going through, or at least understand it.