Man goes to a doctor.
Says he's depressed.
Says life is harsh and cruel.
Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain.

Doctor says "treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him, that should pick you up."

The man bursts into tears "but doctor," he says.
"... I am Pagliacci."

Sums up my life.

I feel very depressed and I feel this huge hole inside me, getting bigger every morning and every night I can't sleep.

People see me as a very successful person, a happy folk.

I ain't that, and nobody understands me.
.. I don't know what I want or what replies I expect from this.