First off, thank you all for responding.
I think I should tell you that maybe the main reason for my depression right now is splitting up with my 5 month girlfriend. It's such a blow even though it was mutual but I miss her so much and would give anything to have her back (which doesn't look likely).
Also, I have a problem with dealing with stress. So both things add up and now I feel 2 foot tall.
What PG king said sounds good, it would nice to have a day where I just relaxed, maybe even going to a health spa (they invited me to go and have a cup of tea with them).
One last thing, I've been having crippling headaches recently where everything gets really bright and I have to relax my limbs. That's not normal is it.
@ >>7
I think you need councelling my friend, you sound like a good person with an inferiority complex. Don't let minor setbacks affect you too much, keep on trying and I know you will get somewhere in no time.