have a new girlfriend. thought i would be doing better once i got here. im kind of not though. my ex is still stuck in my mind. and my ex even said she thought we were 'more compatable', which i don't think is the case. i think im getting "the one who got away" syndrom. im thinking about her all the time. i regret not making a bigger effort to take that relationship more seriously, but at the same time im still disgusted that she left me for another man. i told myself if she ever wanted me back i'd say no based on that, but lately im having doubts (not that i expect such things to ever happen. my imagination just runs wild)
whats more, i now feel incredibly akward when she IMs me. we never even had eachothers AIM names when we saw eachother. just another part of me not taking the relatioship seriously enough. i think i let someone amazing get away.
having these feelings really isn't fair to my new girlfriend. of course i havn't told anyone what i'm feeling. it has me down throughout my entire workday. i considered telling my girlfriend i want to take a break so i have a chance to get my head straight, but i don't think that'll fix anything.
i don't know howto deal with it. i've only been seeing her for about 3 weeks. do i just break up and be single? do i stick around and see if i end up liking this girl alot more? i don't want to lead her on if i don't think i can fall in love with her