I recently realized I can't deal with shit the way I could in high school and I dropped out of a fairly good college because I felt like it wasn't my "calling" or my "dream".

But here's the problem: when it comes to my dream lifestyle, I love being a failure for some reason. I hate facing expectations, I hate having to deal with people, and I hate going to extents to change myself, no matter how unattractive I am.

The original plan was to force myself to obtain a good outward life, and hopefully it will support me when all I want to do all day is sit at the computer and play games and draw all day by myself. Should I follow through with this plan and get back in school and deal with shit I hate? Or should I spend time trying to love a lifestyle I've never loved.

I'm sure there are some people out there who aren't too fond of social expectations, casual friendships, and ambitious dreams. How do you get yourself out of bed and moving in a world where those are the attractive traits?