Hey, i am 22, after high school (with bad marks) i spend 2 years almost all! the time in the rented apartement of my parents.

Haven't done anything besides watching TV on the 5-6 channels, surfing with my computer from the year 2001 ....
Hell, i can't even use office programs since i have never used them. Just nothing.

Well, now i started to study PHYSICS (here, you don't need good marks to enroll in physics cause they exams will throw atleast 50% out, so no problem....).

And nothing has changed. I have no motivation, no real interests in physics nor am i intelligent.

I don't know what i will do, i don't know what i want to do.
I have done pretty much , but failed in everthing, really.

My wish would be following:
just fall asleep and never wake up again :)

Well i have some saved money.
So i also wanted to travel a bit before i die.

in before take some drugs etc. !

I RATHER DIE BY MYSELF THAN LEADING A LIVE IN ILLUSIONS.