I know the exact feeling, last 3 years I haven't been living, I've been existing, surviving, my dreams for the future is being able to afford attending a Con, being able to pay my dentists bill and insurance and still have enough money for snacks.
I'm not worried though, things will "work out" I.E. not get worse, they always do, perhaps that is part of the problem, no matter what i always pull through, I usually end up back wherever I started just a year older.

Sigh...